her littlest things

2009-04-07T18:15:00.005+08:00

I need to lose more moreeee moreeeeeeeeee fats here and there from my perut to my arms! more night jogs, come on zee.
motivation- pleeeeeeease. Hah

been staying at home for the past few days. simply BORING. Its holidays, but well it doesnt seem like one since i couldnt keluar everyday or most of the time. sucks, pfft. forget about it. had late night conversation with amirul two days ago and we talked for like 3 hours? from 11 plus to 2 plus in the morning? crazy. its been long since i had someone to talk to, as i remembered. And oh, so did sulaiman, who called. Normal conversations though, nothing special. take things slow, not in a rush or so anyways. Relationships- err come later. Smileeees*

Oh, im missing friends. We shall meet and hang around soon you guys- dhia, jules, ayu, lin, schoolgirlfriends, eeka, susan and guyfriends. and i soooooooo want to meet idah, syafiqah, aeeeen and eefah soon! When you guys are free, just tell me and we shall set a day out, yeah? Looking forward for further outings with all of you, misses (:

2009-04-05T16:11:00.005+08:00

i have decided not to delete this blog afterall (:

things have been so-far-so-good for me. basically, nothing much is happening neither anything interesting. people come and go at times- guys. friends are busy with their own stuffs. and i have been trying to make myself go for night jogs most of the time. believe it or not, haha.
Very last minute plans yesterday, met up with ayu and lin. at last after a month of not meeting. laughters, joy, gossips, cheeseburgers, guyfriends all in one night. totally got to catch up more with them soon. and oh i miss my bestest bestfriends and girlfriends, meet up soon girls

2009-02-14T00:15:00.007+08:00

Its been long since i blog,
somehow my fingers just feel like posting this one little post today.

in life, there are certainly ups and downs face by all of us, each and everyone of us. god is fair. i believe the more obstacles/hardships/ bad past or moments we face, god loves us even more.

you

its really sad to see you sad. just by reading through , i shed a tear
i really hope you would be strong facing it all. i know its hard, i totally understand. you know i do. but i wont want to see you in this state, neither do your other friends or your family. i want to be able to bring back the old you i knew once, back before. the cheerful you whose smile never fail to make my day or anyones day brighter. how i wish i could help to ease your pain, but i know i couldnt. oh my. cheer up you, cheer up. i believe every single thing happen as theres a reason to it. you got to be strong , dont ever fade that smile away

2008-12-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

OMG! I didnt know i would miss logging this much siaa. Damn, haha! When i have the time to blog, i just dont find the mood to do so. And now when i dont have the time to blog, i have the mood to blog. Suckish man! Hahahhahha. Nevermind uh, after my two weeks of attachments , im going to start blogging. Alll fresh! Alright, away for now. Yang suruh link tu, after two weeks then i will link you guys.
lots of love

2008-11-22T13:15:00.002+08:00

I've beeen feeling not so good this few days. Im down with flu and cough, great. My voice is somehow very low and rockish. Hahah! And I need a box of tissue with me everywhere i go to blow all my hingusssss out. Sad and troublesome issit it to be sick. suckish. i just hope i will get well soon, prays. Talking about being sick, its not the only thing which is bothering me somehow this few days. - I've been having heavy thoughts. Ive been wondering much. Why am i stuck in this situation. Why must i feel sad and ignored by you. I just wonder why. Berikan aku petunjukmu yallah atas segala kejadian dalam hidupku, atas kehadirannya dalam diriku.

Exams starting this monday! Im sooooo going to die. I have not yet started studying. And modules for this semester is super tough compared to the last semester. Im totally lost during lectures. How am i going to get a higher gpa this semester. Shits. Im not sure if i could make it through this common test. God. Enough of talking, i must get starting. Today going out to study with ayu and lin. Come on girls, we got to do some thinking. Well, blog again sometime soon readers. much love

2008-11-02T20:09:00.003+08:00

I feeel that i must confess, but im unsure of what to confesss.
I cant explain this feeling. I only knew in the back of my mind, i cant help but question.

i wonder why. why am i always stuck in this situation, unsure of my own feelings. I just dont understand why. and its always somehow wrong of me to feel this way. i suck in love, totally. tell me about it. isnt it suckish when you felt a strong 'attraction' between you and someone, but later on ending up knowing that his someones? Suckish, really suckish! I never fail to fall into the wrong hole everytime, everymoment. bleargh~ luck isnt by myside after all. but not to worry, i will be fine. sooner or later i will pick myself up, and off i will be on the road back again

2008-11-01T22:57:00.005+08:00

i know, i know its been long since i blog. well, busy lah i must say. i feel like deleting this blog.but thennnnn, kita tengok dulu lah ye. haha! ohh my, i kinda miss writing down my thoughts and letting my feelings lay here in this blog. i misss bloghopping to other's blogs, catching up with all their stories. i just miss those times when i would sit infront of this comp of mine, and start typing continuously about anything/everything i feel like saying/expressing. WOW. without me knowing, my blog really mean alot to me. im soooooooo taking my words back about deleting it. like seriously. haha

now, lets begin
its been a year plus plus now since i last felt being showered with love. Somehow i miss being loooked upon in the eyes, being hugged and embraced in someone's arms, being kissed on my lips or forehead feeling as though im the luckiest girl on earth. I must say, truthfully i miss being in love, in other words, i miss having a boyfriend. it may sound desperate to some of you guys, but this is how and what i feeel all along. im sure its natural if someone feels jealous when they seee couples around them, holding hands, arms tight around each others waist and other things which couples usually do. Cause i feeeel that way.

i've always been hoping to meet someone out there who could shower me with love endlessly, who could be my listening ear, who could be the best boyfriend ever, as well as my enemy. i know patience is the key to everything. Therefore, with patience and my bitter sweet past experience, may entering poly life take me closer in meeeting that someone.
Well, i guess only time will tell, till then

2008-09-27T21:51:00.003+08:00

ONE WEEK LATER, HAHA! As promised, im back once again(:

Whole weeek of cleaning. And im still not done yet with the living room. Its a whole mess out there! Hahaha. And raya's in a few days time! THREE DAYS MORE! MAMPOS. I dont know why am i so not prepared for this year's raya. I dont feel excited like how i use to few years back. Well, entah apa nak jadi with only one pathetic kuih baked this year. With the hall not kemas at all. With lots of things to clear here and there. Gila-gila! I think these are the reasons to why im not excited for raya. BUT, i think on the night itself before raya, i will be screaming, walking back and forth around my living room sia. Lol! Alright, enough of raya's preparation.

I was re-arranging the books on the bookshelf yesterday or two days back, when my sister's tiny little old black diary caught my attention. Never intend to flipped through, but somehow something strong insist me in reading it. I started reading(one particular page which i just stopped at) I was, i was. Sad, shocked, stunned by those words. Written down in blue ink- 'And my sister? I HATE HER! She always pisses me off. Plz lar she onli sec 2 ok! Always trying to act big, cmon ar im older than you ok! I HATE HER. She like never respect me and she thinks that she and her friends are so great?! Wat the hell. I always argue with her. Sometimes i just feel like strangling her, but then i just walk away and ignore her. She sucks!' So how do you think i should react? Of course it never came across my mind to see that much hatred. To know that you felt like strangling me back then. But I'm not blaming you, i really dont. Maybe i have hurt you somehow at that moment of time. Maybe, perhaps. Dearest sister, we have grow up together & have spend alot of moments together from young. Trust me, I never thought of wanting to hurt you, ever/ cause your my only older sister who i look up to. Eventhough at times you may be irritating, selfish, stubborn, jahat in anyways towards me by your harsh ways/words which can be really hurtful at times, i will still and always love you no matter what.

i just love you & will never stop praying for the very best for you,
keep that in mind.

2008-09-20T12:44:00.002+08:00

wednesday
Outing with CA mates was a blast! its been like long since i laugh and enjoyed myself, haha! I cant deny i really had a great time. Anyways, 4bia wasnt that scary afterall, but still scary though. I kept screaming and shouting, even when it was not the scary-scary part. Haha! With emma sitting beside me lagi, i can totally go deaf sia! Hahaa, she kept screaming in my ears! Ouch, lol. Lagi yang tak best nya, bau sweet popcorn and corndog menusuk hidung tau! Pakal aja puasa! nasib zee boleh maintain nafsu! HAHAA! Well, pictures will be uploaded soon after getting them from yanru and also emma(:

Yesterday, friday
Breakfast(buka) with favourite schoolgirls is the best! With the hot and kecoh geylang atmosphere, packed with lots of people, it certainly made our day. (Yah right, totally sweating all over. HAHA!) Break our fast at new hawa/gerai apa kebenda entah, then off we went to bazaar. Lin meet up with ameer while emma met up with boyfriend, hairil. Ayu and me on the other hand met up with izzat and some of izzat's friends. We kept stopping at certain spots due to takda arah tujuan. Haha, come on the bazaar is super big lor. Dont expect me to walk the whole bazaar okay! KAKI BOLEH PATAH! Somemore i was sweating like shit, panas gila! if we followed izzat, lagi parah i tell you. Ikut dia cari baju macam perempuan!(kalah perempuan i guess) Haiyooo, haha! Go here and there, keep patah balik at the same spot. Meet with some MIA friends, haha! This and that, gedebak gedebuk. And then, went back home around 10 plus plus like that. Again, pictures taken yesterday will be uploaded sooon tooo.

And so, thats it

2008-09-16T15:05:00.007+08:00

I dont even know how long i've been away from blogging. Haha!

Like what syakirin say, Terutama sekali saya minta maaf kerana lama tak blog. Hehe. Been a little busy with my 3 weeks attachments at CGH, ward 18 thats the why. But im done with everything! Attachments over and now i can enjoy my 3 weeks/one month holidays! YAY! I bet some of you guys will be jealous. kankankan? hehe, kening naik-naik^^

I've not yet jejak my kaki at geylang, believe it or not. Im always the girl who ketinggalan zamans one, so dont be shock. HAHA! Bring me to geylang, anyone? :D Anyways, most probably i would only jejak my kaki at geylang on this very friday itself cause i'm going to buka with my favourite school girls. Can't wait! Heeeee~ For today, im just going to mendanguk infront of the computer. Then for tomorrow, plans with attachment friends. They decide to catch a movie, 4bia i guess? I heard alot from others about this movie. Scary sia, haha! I've been wanting to catch that movie weeks before, but had no time. Thus, besok lah ye nampak nya. Aiyaya, i hope i wont have nightmares after watching it or bulu roma naik everytime i naik the lift or anything? Im one scadycat you see. HAHAAHAH! Imagine- dengar misteri jam duabelas dah takut, apatah lagi tengok wayang dengan sound system yang mengejutkan, sangatlah kuat! HAHAAHAHA! I cant imagine myself in the theater itself even before the movie starts! lol. Well, whatever it is. Lets see how tomorrow would go.

Okay, im done! Will post again sometime.
Maybe tomorrow? Or weeks later? HAHA!:D

2008-08-20T23:48:00.008+08:00

its been a year & one month now, indeed time passes by real quick

the date 20th just reminds me of a particular moment in the past. A bittersweet chapter which I have decided to close sometime ago and make it the wonderful one, among the rest. i always thought i was able to get rid of everything, thoughts & feelings about it all, but i was'nt aware that i could'nt. maybe you leave such a huge impact on me, till i'm unsure on where, when and even how to start things afresh. I was'nt given the chance before to tell you how much i love you back then- not even once in that particular 30 days being with you. probably i was unsure how i could express it all to you, without any previous experiences to support me and to give me strength to go through each and every step i took, alone. everything stop me from saying the truth which have been kept long enough. if only i could save our relationship. it would be a year & one month now if we stood strong. but eventhough it only lasted a month, it was all wondeful. the endless love you showered me with, tight hugs and those kisses and and also the times we had spend together was

all worth the 30 days.

now a year & one month have passed. i guess its long enough for me to start things afresh once again in my life, right? Well hey, I'm moving on. I'm learning to pick myself up once again, finding my way to start a fresh new chapter. I know there are lots of things ahead waiting for me. For now, im keeping the past aside- will always be remembered though and i will definitely take it as an experience which i will carry in life. and ohhh thanks to this statement here; 'maybe all this things happen as there's a reason to it' have totally made me realise that the things which happen between us really have a reason to it. to that, i'm much stronger when facing certain things which i go through every single day. simpler explaination, im a better person today. a whole lot of thanks to you, superman

2008-08-16T21:12:00.012+08:00

USUALS i totally miss the times we had spend together all this while. i guess you guys are busy with your own stuffs, other friends and all. well whatever it is, i just miss you guys. alot

Mohd Nur Hakim somehow, i just miss you

Siti Radhiah we were once enemy(somehow, during primary school) but nothing else matters now, bestfriend. you're eveything. i miss you, baby

Nurul Syafiqah The cute little one, who jogs with me every monday(haha). you're the other part of me, i miss you

Eeka & Susan The two bacin & kentot baby girls^^ Thanks for being there when im sad and feeling down. i may not be good in words, but all i know is i love you guys.

overall, somehow & out of a sudden blue i just miss friends):

2008-08-11T01:18:00.004+08:00

'You need to push things a little more in one of your relationships -- you've been patient long enough, waiting for them to wake up to what is possible. And since they show little if any sign of doing so, it's up to you to show them the light. So today, it's time for you to take a little risk. Be vulnerable and open about your feelings, but be careful not to put forth any demands. Pressure is not a good element to add to this equation. All you have to do is talk' - horoscope of virgo

i dont believe in all this things actually. im just taking this few quotes for fun. Heee(; Firstly, indeeed i have to push things a little more- referring to my studies, cause exams are around the corner. COME ON ZEE, STUDY! Haha. Next, i guess i've been patient enough. Really true! only i knew how patient i am till today, hah. & lastly, 'i got to be open about my feelings' im not sure about that, but for now i guess i shall keep things within myself. ooh, so random. Haha! :D

NEXT! to my two sweet babies(HAHA), who cared and asked about my recent post(Eeka&Susan), im fine dear love. thanks for asking. this is the reason why i love you both as much as i love my own self. awwww lah kan! HAHA! from the bottom of my heart* (: And oohh baby girls, i hope things between you guys and your bfs are okay. i wont want to see any of you both sad and all, yeah? i miss you guys, alot. meet up soon! (; sheesh, i miss my kate and jules too. haiyoo. and oh, somehow i miss the usuals, the times we had spend together and everything. well, everyone seems to forget their old friends. hmm, nvm lets not talk abt it.

im sleeping now! its like 1.18 AM and im still awake. HAHA! Ohh wait, before i almost forgot, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZULFIQAR! have a good day ahead yeah. semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki. amin* hehe!
goodygoodynight

2008-08-09T01:08:00.007+08:00

Sad. cant figure out why. that's the weaker side of me- unsure of my own thoughts and feelings. & i totally hate it. okay, sheesh. Im going to spill it out. I hope i would feel abit better. truth is(honestly), i like him. i just realized it moments ago after that conversation. & that is when i felt that gush of feeling in me. yah- sad, confuse, lost for a moment. i knew things would end this way somehow. told you guys earlier that there is someone he likes. see, good prediction huh. well, i guess i can make things simple for me. i shall just treasure & enjoy the friendship between us and most importantly is to forget about my tiny crush on him. thats what im going to do. perhaps us being just friends is the best afterall.

2008-08-08T18:53:00.007+08:00

I could'nt believe it. Two days straight, badluck. i mean, really badluck. i so called lost my handphone(but managed to find it back) lcuky issit it, but only for that moment of time. cause im not lucky this time. i lost my purse, YESTERDAY! sheesh, and untill now its still nowhere to be found. i wonder when/where/how i lost my wallet. aiyoo, dugaan-dugaan. i just hope i would get back my purse as soon as possible cause all my paticulars are in it and if its found, i wont need to menyusahkan anyone especially my parents to keluarkan duit to make new ic and ezlink card(again). well, its not that i want my purse to hilang, right. so please ayah or mama, dont make me feel much more sedih somehow, cause i have been feeling down this few days and i wont want to add more to all of it):

praying hard for someone to return my purse*

2008-08-05T18:17:00.017+08:00

I know at last im updating, haha! been tooo busy with school i must say till i couldnt have time to blog and everything. but school is not the only reason lah, im actually very malas already lah to blog (eventhough i have lots in mind this and that, and i feel like typing it all down to express my thoughts) well, maybe somethings are meant to be kept within myself i guess. hehh(: Hmm hmm, exams around the corner and i've yet not study! Aiyooo, takut aja fail. if i fail any module, damn i have to retake it with the new badge. ohh no way, thats not going to happen! I will study hard and i'll make sure i pass evey module. just pass also can, asalkan pass sudah! Hahaha!:D prays hard, amin*

....

okay. errrrrerrr, i dont know why i've been having this kinda idk kind of feeling.(okay, somethings wrong with this sentence, haha! but, hack care) i know its weird all of a sudden blue im talking about this. but then, ahhhh idk lah! haha. well, i guess its been long since i last love/like someone after my last breakup. its hard to move on when you truly love that person, but i manage to forget the previous wonderful, bittersweet chapter of my life & now im moving on, starting things afresh

hmm. weird ah weird. i dont know why i feel happy and i wont stop smiling like there's no tomorrow whenever i chat with him. i wonder why, really. dont ask me after reading this people, cause im confuse and unsure myself. hahaa, i like him? maybe, maybe not. aiyayaya, malu lerr. but sheesh. i dont want to feel this way- cause im afraid, afraid i would end up being sad in the end somehow. His cute, good-looking, caring and stuffs, for sure he have someone he like and also girls who like him, right? so yah, can't a stand chance. therefore have to get rid of this feeling, fast! no more feeling excited or so when his online, no no. hopes hopes

thats all the time i have for updating. im done for now, happy reading.

2008-07-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA! I know i have not been updating AGAIN! Its been long. Sorry eh gangs, been busy with school. Hectic, stressful, everything lah. Hahaa! I shall update soon lah once i have some time off away from school. No promises made here. Heee^^ Taking care

2008-07-02T20:36:00.002+08:00

OMG

2008-07-01T19:08:00.008+08:00

first july two thousand and eight
Starting of a new day, of a new month
(ehh corrcet anot my sentence ini, HAHA) So what lah eh, sometimes our english are just not perfect. Heee(:

Just like some others, i look forward when it comes to a new day of a new month. I hope things would be way better for me this july. I know everything lies in allah's hand. Prays hard, amin*
But then reading back yesterday's post makes me feel sad. Argh, totally spolits my mood. Each day i will look forward to hear from him. Even if its a short comment or msg from him, it will just do. I'm not asking and i won't ask for anything from him. All i'm asking for is at least ask lah how am i doing or so. Is it that difficult? No. I guess now i see your true self -Your words are just words. I won't say anything, anymore. I won't want to think or blog about you(perhaps) Well, whatever you think is right, go ahead with it. Starting from now, i won't want think about you or find you anymore. Lets see how long you will realise your mistakes and come searching for me. I had enough, thanks.

Macam so emotional gitu. HAHA, dont care. I just want to let out everything. Now im feeling better(: Hmm, i would like to share some thing which made me somehow realise about the surrounding people. We all should treasure our love ones, be it family, relatives, friends, teachers, lets just say everyone. All of us have feelings and we want to be showered with love and respect, dont we? Therefore we must always remember and treasure them all cause they are the ones who have been there for us, guiding us all along, lending their shoulder for us to cry on, who shared lots of things with us, who have been through with us most of the times- be it through happy or sad times. I bet without them, we are nothing in this world. Thats it- to be remembered

2008-06-30T19:17:00.007+08:00

I always fail to post something for my blog! I'm irritated myself, i don't know why. HAHA!

I've been busy this few weeks due to clinical attachments. Wahhpiangg ehhh, really tired. Everyday wake up early in the morning just to get ready for attachments- Long day ahead. Its like a routine for me everyday. Wake up early in the morning, get ready for attachments, then at 4.30 off we go home. Basically i will either on the computer for awhile or i just go to sleeep when i reach home. This is how boring my weekdays is for the past last 2 weeks-______- . Well, im posted to pasir ris polyclinic for this week attachment . Oh guys, if you see me there ke or anything, please ehh try not to call me. Hehehe, how malu can i be if i like terserempak anyone i know. Chitty-chitty-bang-bang sia. Lol^^ Alright, enough of all the attachments and stuffs. Im getting bored & sick thinking and talking about it. Hehe(:

Let's talk about some other things instead. Hmm, i kept thinking about certain people out there who tend to forget those who have been there for them all this while when they need help and all, when they're feeling down, everything. Let me ask you guys this, How hurtful can it be when someone simply just forget about you, never even cared about you or care to find you, after all you have done for them the minute they're happy with their live now as in more of relationship thingy. I can't stop telling myself how heartless can they be! WTH! Really disappointed with whoever that person im referring to ah. I guess you never appreciate my help afterall. You keep saying thanks, but your thanks just dont seem to mean anything. Im not even bothered anymore. I'll won't be shock/excited if one fine day you tend to find me, cause i know its only for that moment of time you come searching for me- in need of help. Well, i so understand you. All i can say is takecare lah boy. Lets just see how everything goes from now on

2008-06-22T18:22:00.004+08:00

I feel like blogging when i view people' s blog. Haha! (:

Well, its the weekends! Yesterday, Imagine i was all ready, dah siap semua but then no plans! HAHA! Bodoh. Kate went to johor early in the morning and like that's the main reason why i had no plans. i dont even know who else i could ajak to go out. haha, kental! I atually browse through my whole contacts to cari orang to ajak keluar, but like noone. I msg ferdi, but then no replies. Shits. lucky i msg eeka sayang, and as usual, she would reply. She was suppose to meet ryan kikie and go out with him to scape i guess? But then i guess tak jadi. Sooooo, she teman me first while waiting for ryan to bagun-___- HAHA! yeahh, we headed to cityhall. - I dont want to be tooo detail here. Haha We both met ryan ard 7 plus. he said he was with only 2 other friend, but turn out the whole gang of friends were at arcade. ryan kikie ryan kikie, haha! kekek lah mmm mmmm(i know, eeka know, ryan know! Hee) Welll, so all the way i followed eeka, ryan and his friends. No where else to go and noone to meet also what, so yah. the tissue shooting from the nose funny ehhh! HAHAHAA! Siakkkkkkk~

Special thanks
Dear atyqa zainal, thanks for teman-ing me the whole saturday. You never fail to make me smile. I was really hyper-active at night okay! Thanks to you and kikie! HAHAHAH! Senakkkk! Lol, i surely got to tell something about him-senak.

Today pulaa, went madrasah early in the morning. Seriously i woke up a little late just now due to the nice cold weather, nice to sleep lorrr & also due to layan-ing errrr this guy who i just know yesterday until 2 AM? Okay, forget about that. As usual, i always enjoy going to madrasah class, meeting my taqua mates and my funny-tembam-cute ustad firdaus! Heee(: Learn quite a few important things today which made me realise alot more about life. ohhh, power ah. i will always look forward fo sunday! (: what i like most about my madrasah is, we have no exams! HAHAHAHAH! And and and we do have like aloooooot of activities! talking about activities, We're going to go cycling/rollerblading or bowling next coming week. Cant wait!(: Alright people, thats about it. I dont want to drag this post loooonger either. happpy reading guys. Tooooodless

2008-06-19T14:06:00.002+08:00

My holidays seems dull. i can't go out everyday, and i have nothing to do at home either. aiyaaaaa, boring. top up also no one msg. well, cant blame anyone cause i know everyone's busy with their own stuffs and noone is contacting with me anyway. So i guess thats why im not receiving any msgs or so.

[TUESDAY] SAD! I know i somehow sempat lupaa your birthday, my lovely mama. But then trust me, zati tak sengaja. Dont say that i penting kan my friends, please mama. No! Your the very first one on my list! Im sad when you cry, im sad when you say that noone remembers your birthday. I cried, i feel like i dont want to proceed for my classpit, but then we have booked everything. Im just sorry, really sorry mama. That letter i wrote, with tears streaming down my cheeks while writing, i hope you understand my true feelings. Thats the only thing i could give you, and thats the only way i can express my feelings to you. I hope from the letter, you will know how much i really love you. Stated earlier, Had class pit at eastcoast park. Only pathetic 9 or 10 of us were there. tak gunaa punya class lah. Apadahhh, nvm. I guess i somehow enjoyed myself eventhough the food we had was little and not that appetizing. despite it all, night cycling was the best overall. my legs were aching due to we cycled from one end to the other? Hahaha. Wanted to rent rollerblades, but then the shop was closing soon and the stupid thing was i didnt explore the few shops further infront, or else i could skate already. Damn! My bad): And and and Unexpectedly i saw slurfiq again! Hahaa! Cute lah that guy! (: Yeah, thats about tuesday [TODAY] susan ajak me to go sentosa with her and some of her friends. i want to follow, but then i cant go out this saturday if i follow them today. shitty issit it. ohh my, when can i have that little freedom from mama and ayah. sheeesh~

Omg!
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAAHHAA! Thanks ahh min, your blog buat zee ketawa sendiri macam orang gilaaa! Siol, giggles* Klakarr hoorrrrrrr! ANAK SIAPA TU YANG MAIN DI LONGKANG! Hahahahahahaaa! :D Min's blog never fails to make me laugh or smile sendiri in front of my comp screen, make me forget all the things im thinking of and cheering me up. my-favourite-funny-friend ah you!(: You better read this ah min! Heheh

Im done for now. Toooodles

2008-06-16T15:42:00.003+08:00

I miss blogging. Haha, but then i just dont have time for it. Well my lovely darlings and all, if i have the time to blog, i will & i shall blog to keep you guys update. For now, this will be my little post for today. But before i end this post, here's a short paragraph of what's going on about myself.

Every life has its own ups and downs. Its just about how we control the problems or feelings we encounter. Just like some others, I'm an ordinary girl who do face lots of ups and downs- from family problems, lovelife, school and freedom i must say. indeed sometimes its just hard to face it all, but its easy to control everything if i have the patience. Not only that, thanks to this phrase- 'maybe all this hurtful/sad/unexpected things happen cause there's a reason to it all' it have made me stand strong and become a better person than before.

well, yeah. thats it. i shall update soon if i have the time to do so. takecare then guys

2008-05-24T13:30:00.001+08:00

My mood is all on posting pictures only for today. ( wahh, can like that ahh?) HAHAHAA!

Ohh friends, meet my SHORTER older sister! :DD

Younger looks older while older looks younger. Go figure!

Ahhhhhh! HUGE LEGS! Hahahaaa

These pictures are taken on 19 May, Vesak Day. Best Monday! Exercise yokkkkkk! Hahahaha! (:

2008-05-21T06:45:00.001+08:00

Ooppps. 5 days never update! Hahahah!

Lets post a quick summary lahh ehh. On the saturday, first time kape i sit at home only tak keluar. HAHAHAA! Can make it lahh ehh tak keluar for the new two weeks. Aiyaaa. Then on the Sunday, tahlil for arwah ayah man(2 years). Indeed time passes by real fast. Its 2 years now since ayah man left us all. Ohh god, how much i miss him. How much i miss all the moments we had spend together as a whole family. How much i miss those fun lorry rides, eating supper late at night. How much i miss every bit of him; his smile, his love for me and all my siblings and cousins. His really the best uncle, ever. And no one could ever replace him in my heart. Ayah man, izzati rindu ayah man): "Ya allah, kepadamu lahh ku bermohon. Terima lah ayahman ku di sisimu ya allah. Jauhilah dia daripadada seksaan api neraka. Hanya kepadamu lah ku memohon. Amin" I know his always looking down, seeing on all of us. I just hope for the best, amin. Alright, thats on sunday. Well yesterday, monday Vesak day, was really fun. Outing with my uncle, aunty and cousins. Its been long since we had an outing together. Went to catch a movie, CONGKAK. Makk oi, bila seram seram gila, bila kelakar kelakar gila. Hahaha! The sound effect, wow! Memeranjatkan! Heheheeheh(: I did melatar macam susan siaa! Tapi nasib nobody laugh at me:DD You guys should watch congkak! Recommended by me!(: Hehh. Guess what, it was still not called a day yet for me. Reached home, quickly get change and off i went jogging with jules and sister. HAHAHAHAA! Active kape zee! But then belum seberapaa, zee pancit habis seyyy. Lol! But then, but then, dont play play ahh, i did manage to jog 4 rounds and did some stretches at the fitness area you know! Heheheheeh. Ye elehh, 4 rounds pun tak guna, perut tetap boncit ajaaa. Sheesh, lol. MUST GET RID OF THE BABATS! MUST GET RID OF THE BABATS! Kalau tak, tak sexy! HAHAHAHAHAHA (: Okay, the longer im typing for this post, the merepek i get. Stop stop stop- I shall post again someday when im free yeahh. Thats it

2008-05-16T14:28:00.001+08:00

Lets updaaate!(:

In the morning- I didnt get to seat in the train from simei all the way to clementi. Omg, i swear it's really tiring standing at one side of the door, leaning your head at one bar. Gosh, Takda seseorang manusia pun yang kesian kan zee. Booo): Hahaha! Okay, Move oooon~ First 4 hours was Nursing skill. Everytime confirm we all will be soo tired and sleepy during this 4 hours straight. Boring i tell you, can rally shut down habis-habisan punya. Hahaa! But then today like very interesting like that. We learn how to clean our really really precious part of the body, which is our bottom part lahh, the bottom. Hahahaa! I guess you guys should understand(:And one kekek-est part was when syafiq had to clean the male's part. He really like wanted to screw the penis siaaa instead of cleaning it in a circular motion, gently. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Syafiq syafiq~ You made everyone laugh siaaaa. We never learn about screwing in our course you know! Kekek-kekek. I know, my class know, but public dont know. Hehehe!

In the afternoon- Aiyoo. Lectures, such a bore. I cant seem to get anything in my head siaa. AAP especially! Dont ask me about it. Im really lost! I need some helplines here! Hahahaha!(: I only could remember what i memorise for FON test. 1) Respect clients individual needs and values. 2) Respect and promote clients autonomy.... Blahh Blahh Blahh, i write also confirm others dont understand. HAHAHHAAA! Thats what i can remember for now. Lol
I HATE SCIENCE LAHH, I FAILED THAT SUBJECT OKAY! And now i have to learn science, wth.

Nighty-night- Im stuck here, in front of the computer typing this kinda lame post for today. Hahahaa! Im Stress stress stress! More stress due to more projects and assignments which must/should be submitted soon. Aiyaaaaa~ Hectic. Susan come on, lets go swimming soon. I cant take it! Hahahaa.

Loooo Looooo skip to my looooo. Alright, Happy reading guys. Im off(:

2008-05-15T10:50:00.001+08:00

God dammit, i've been missing alot when i never blog. Hahahaha
I sooo need to catch up with everyone's blog pretty soon. Hehehehehe(:

So wasssssssuppppp people! Hows everybody been doing ehh? What i know I've been feeling great, tired, stress and what-so-ever feeling since school started. Projects projects projects. Belambakk, really! Hahaa, but that doesnt keep me from being soooo hyper-active in school epecially during the dancefloor that my school had organise for all the freshmens! Hahahahaa. My girlfriends were all saying im superhyper active and was dancing clumsy-ly till i fell a couple of times! Shame shame* Giggles(; Maluuu lerr~ I really enjoyed myself, but minus the part when i saw that classmate of mine whom i had a tiny crush on, dancing with this girl. So whatever. Okay, lets move on. Haha. Next(episodII), i just bought a new blue jansport bag & i dont know why somehow i regretted buying it. Maybe because i wanted to find a nicer one. Aiyayayaya. Someone please, who is willing to buy the NEW jansport bag for $49? Please please! Hahaha. Tag me yeahh if anyone is willing to buy. Dont worry, the bag is brand new(: Next next(episodIII), For the next two weeks ahead, im not going anywhere. As i have lready promise mama & also my common test are coming- yet i still havent study! Im going to die die die! Hehehee. So to all my love ones, im sorry i cannot meet you guys like those normal saturdays. But perhaps after two/three weeks, i will be going out again! So tunggu yaaaaaa. And now i dpnt know what else i want to talk about. Maybe this is enough for you guys out there to keep track on what i've been doing this few days/weeks. Hehehee, not interesting. I know, lol. Well, i shall come back and update pretty soon yeahh. If there's anything, just msg zee yaaaaa. Winks ^^

2008-05-05T10:01:00.001+08:00

Whenever I am feeling low, i look around me and i know. There are love ones who are there for me, whenever i am feeling so low. I will always remember they're there for me, know that they'll always be. Going through this life with all their loves. Still standing strong and tall. They are friends, truly. Where their love are for me, guiding me all along, lending me a shoulder to cry on. They are friends, surely. And will always be. This is where i wont be alone. For this is where, i know I'm strong~

-specially dedicated for those who have been there for me, always.

That last sentense- Yes, im strong! Im not weak and im not going to be weak. Ignore my previous posts friends, I was too carried away. Thanks boy. The feeling may come sometimes, but i know it would eventually go. I bet thinking about my circle of friends; the love ones is way way better than thinking about you. Truth is, im complete with all their love. Not yours

Thanks. Fuhhhh~ Im feeling much better. Giggles* (:

2008-04-28T14:08:00.001+08:00

I dont know why i just feel like posting something today. Strange-yes & I've been wondering, thinking and having that weird and sad feeling this few days.
Dont ask me, cause i dont even know.

I'm missing every moment we had spent together.
I'm missing that spot where all those wonderful moments lie.
I'm missing those lift moments.
I'm missing that particular voice.
I'm missing those tight and lovely hugs.
I'm missing thoses kisses which never fail to melt me, lifting me off the ground.
I'm missing saying that name.
I'm missing everybit of you.
I'm just missing everything about you.

Maybe I'm thinking too much about you.
Maybe I'm making myself to miss you.
Maybe I still cant forget about you.
Maybe I cant make myself to see you with someone else now.
Maybe I'm still loving you, without myself knowing.
Maybe, Maybe, Maybe

I dont get what I'm feeling right now. It sucks

2008-04-15T13:50:00.001+08:00

SUNDAY; Gerekkkkk!

Skarismaaa beb! Hehehehe. I was glad ahh last minute i got to go music garage and catch up with the gig walaupun i met up with eeka, susan and friends one hour late. Hehhh. When i first enter the rooom, wahliaooooooooo! Pack gila punya gila. Dah pack, Panas nak mampos pulaa tuu. Orang semua berpeluhhh. Like aiyoooo. I dont know how those people in there could breathe, seriously. Its really really pack plus stuffy and all-let me repeat it again. The two huge foggy mirrors says its all. Boleh mampos. Hahahahaha! Eventhough panas, it was really gerek ahh skanking with everyone. I very happy eu know that i got to skank with susan, eeka, noi, hady, ferdi(si action nak mampos tuu) and lain lagi. Hehhhhh, Kecoh kebabi-an. But but but the sad thing is kate wasnt there to spend time with me, but its okay. School stuffs is much more importatnt right? And tak mati apa kalau tak pergi gig tuu. Itu pun due to eeka lahh i went to the gig, if not i tak pergi. Overall i enjoyed myself! Must enjoy punya before masuk sekolah mahh. Hehehehee! (:

Okay next, enough of skarismaaaa. Today was the first day of school. My day started of real bad as i couldnt find the baju that i want to wear. I dont know where the hell my sister put it as she was kemas-ing the bilik on the sunday. Okay, thats one part. I thought my day would be reallu dull ahh, but it turn out to be quite gerek! Happening ahh in school. From finding my way to the right block which im suppose to be at for my lectures and eveything, from meeting and making wonderful new friends and ending up eating the soooo-tak-sedapp roti john from canteen 1! Eeeeew, yucks. Serious the roti john tak sedap nak mampos. Luckily murah siaa, and i wasnt the one who paid for it. Thanks ehh izzat! hehehe(; Its good to be in school, perhaps for now. Hahaahaha! Alright, blog again soon people(:

2008-04-13T05:10:00.001+08:00

Last post, 24 march.
Wow, lama gila. Haha

Its been like errrrr, 3 weeks(or more) since i last update? Haha. So sorry to those who have been catching up with my blog or so. This goes to hajjar! Hehhh. Im now updating for eu and eur request! Haha, and for my other blogreaders and mates too.

I've gone through ups and downs this few weeks. What's life without all those things, right? We just have to stay strong, be patient and to that we can surely mend and go through all the challenges in our life. Yeahh, and zee macam faham. Haha(: Okay, lets move on. Next- Ohh my, im left with only one more day before school start. Damn, meaning lessser time to go out, lesser time to meet up with friends, my love ones. But nevermind. No matter how busy i am, i will try my very best to meet up with all my friends once a while! Yeahh. And now, Im still like a blurcock, not knowing what time my school starts on monday (dah lahh time table must check sendiri at internet, and printer pula tuu spoil, cannot print! Alamakk) , which block must i go to and when must i buy all the necessary things for my course. Thinking back, that pathetic one day orientation does not help, at all. I didnt gain anything from there. Like other schools orientation is 3 or 4 days. For me, pathetic one day. Like what? Stupid right? Aiyaaa. I hope i can make it ehh in this course. Dahlahh im not interested for now, but i know i will learn to like it though. Come on izzati! (:

Alright, i shall update my blog again soon. Happy reading

2008-03-25T12:27:00.001+08:00

I WANT NEW BAG!
I WANT NEW CLOTHES!
I WANT EVERYTHING NEW!

Okay, thats alot! Meaning i need lots of money! Hehehehehe! Im going to work hard now to get money. Go go zee! Apa sahaja! Hahahaa. Alright, im off for now. Tired, Zzzzzzzz~

2008-03-18T06:53:00.001+08:00

Im back! Hahahha. And i will be gone again.
Dont mind me friends, been busy. Really

Work work work, and soon im going to go to school this coming april. Damn I will miss my friends. No need to wait later-later, now im missing most of them. I miss Kate, Susan, Eeka the close ones. And i miss some others, Hady, Noi, Tutu(some others more) Hope to meet eu guys soon yeahh.

And im off for now.

2008-03-05T13:33:00.001+08:00

Hey Heyy my blogmates and bloghoppers!
Sorry have not been updating my blog for like days , or should i saw week? Hehhhh. Been really busy eversince i've started work recently. So i have like lesser time to use the computer and so on. Many are saying that they rarely see me online now. Yeahh, i so agree. Iim working lerrrr, So sorryyy!

Lots of things happen for the past few daysssss. Both bad and good. I wont want to elaborate about it. It will only make me sad this and that. I dont want to be sad, I want to be happy! (: I want to smile widely like nobody's business! I want to jump around and be the happiest girl on earth. Pretty please?

Tomorrow will be working again. 11 am to around 6 pm. Fuhh, tiring. But want money mah, sooo must be strong! Hehh. I have nothing much to say. All I know is i miss lots of people, I miss all my sayanggss. I miss kate, jules(padahal kerja nampak, hehh), susan, eeka, usuals, munir(haha) and many otherssss! Hope to meet eu guys soonnn yeahhh! I gues im off for now. Goodbye(:

2008-02-28T15:01:00.001+08:00

Im glad that i have something fun and great to post about today. Yay

BIG THANKS TO SUSAN SAYANGGG! If eu never ask me out today, to follow eu, i bet i would only feel down just like those few days. I totally had fun fun fun going out with eu, eventhough its only for like awhile? Hahaha, but who cares! I really laugh my ass today! Thanks for making my day dear. I just love eu ahhhh, Mahesh! (: One thing i need to admit. Whenever i go out with susan, she will always make me crazy siaa. I feel like im not a 16 turning 17 year old lady(lady lah kan, takkan girl!). Hahahahaaaa! She never fails to make me smile and to laugh out so loudly like nobody's business like that. Siol! Hehhh. From bugis street to raffles banquet, kekek kekek ajaa kita orang. Seriously, at banquet especially. 1st- I was enjoying eating the cheesefries when suddenly i saw susan waving at someone, but actually she's not. Instead she was stratching her head! Wahlannneehhh! hahaa. Okay, not that funny. 2nd- I was licking some cheese on my finger when susan says; Thats sooo not seductive! HAHAHAHAHAHAA. That made me laugh gila brabi punya! Siol ah euuuu~ hahahaa. 3rd- We laugh and laugh and laugh till one cheesefries fell on my pants okay. 'Spot the cheese!' HAHAHAAA. rabak! Like i kencing siaakkkk. Hehhh. There's lots of funny moments just now till im too tired to type. Heh. All i know is that, overall, i really enjoyed myself todaywith the company of su su su kentot! Hahaaaa! I want the pictures soon yeah syg. Send me! Or else i take from eur blog. Now go and post ah eu! Lalalalaaa~

2008-02-27T11:11:00.001+08:00

Fine if eu wouldnt want to talk to me! Its just that tiny thing that i forgot to do which is to angkat kain baju and like eur saying that eu malas want to talk to me anymore. (im sorry if im wrong)"Semua tak tahu dgr kata. Dah malas aku nak ckp dgn korang lagi." those words which came out from eur mouth. And other words which i suddenly forget eventhough it just happen a few minutes ago. Mama is so right. Eu always talk without thinking. Ayah tak pernah nak fikir apa perasaan kita. Ayah tak pernah nak fikir apa yg ayah kata dgn kita semua menyakitkan. Bukannya izzati sengaja taknak angkat kain baju kan, cuma izzati lupa. Hack care ah if eu wont talk to me. I'm really sick and tired. Eur ego is too strong! Eu just dont think of others. Eu only think of eurself. Eu only think about how eu feel. Whatever it is, since that what eu say and want to do, then so be it. Dont talk to me! Dont even care if kakak is coming home anot. All eu want has happen. Eu want kakak to berambus from the house right, thats what eu want right. Dah jadi pe! Happy? Arghhhhhh~
And one more thing, "pintu itu untuk siapa? Untuk datuk kau!" i never thought ones dad will ever say that to his own daughter with full of anger eventhough he is so mad at his own daughter. But my father did. And that totally hurt me. ****!

I hate what's happening now. I hate it!

2008-02-27T06:35:00.001+08:00

Omg. I realise how much others care about me. Having all those really wonderful, caring and concern friends around me. Asking me to cheer up this and that. Tagging me, msging me with all those really sweet and encouraging words and even posting something about me. I really appreciate eveything, alot. Thanks kate for posting that post especially for me. Thanks ainrette, susan, min, atyqa and my other lovely friends who tag me and asking me to cheer up. Thanks hazz syg for msging me yesterday night.
(Dear friends, I may not be good in words, but i would like to say thanks to each of eu guys. Eu guys are the best! Well, saying thanks is all i could afford to say.) I'm really very touch guys. I know everything would be okay and just fine with all of eu around. I'll be alright, trust me!(: Once more, i really appreciate everything friends.

I love eu guys.

2008-02-26T09:01:00.001+08:00

Ignore the previous post. I was a little carried away):

Firstly; Sorry susan i didnt post about that outing with usuals. Actually i intended to, but things went out of hand. Ayah was nagging and that totally irritates me. Thats why instead of posting about that outing, i end up posting about the things which happen yesterday night. (So sorry, was too carried away.) I really have no mood to post abt that quite fun outing with usuals the bad planners! But for eu i shall talk alittle about it. the outing was quite fun syg. I met up with three new friend- ida says hello, syakira and fidah. yadaa yadaaa, eat the cake and the fun thing was when i start bashing the birthday boys. Hehh, creams and cheese on their faces! Hehh, fun lah bash org! Huhu. Well, thats it mostly. I elaborate more when i have the modd to story okay eu. Secondly; sorry to Susan again, Ferdi and Apit as i suddenly went offline yesterday without telling eu guys. Eu should know why right, i did explain to each of eu. We'll chat again soon yeah guys.Thirdly; Lately i've been feeling cranky, grumpy, moody and stuffs. Im really sorry friends if i've been acting differently. Alot of things are happening till i dont know how i can cope with all this. I just cried on the phone talking to mama. Tolong lah mama, jgn ckp pasal mati boleh. Izzati sedih. Omg, ignore that okay. I have no mood now friends. Im off for now yeah. I'll blog again soon, if i feel much better. Till here.

2008-02-25T15:49:00.001+08:00

(This paragraph was hand written by me at 23:49 yesterday. And now its the only time when i could post it.)

[Part I]Mama & ayah nags and nags and nags. Thats what they usually do. I know its normal & they nag cause they love me. But sometimes they're just too much. I simply can't stand it! Now that i'm not working and i cannot go out anymore(i don't know until when) due to reach home a little late than usually which was at 12, basically all i could do is watch tv or to go online. But going online is also a problem to eu guys. What do eu guys want from me? I just don't understand. From last time, i intended to write a letter about how i feel and to tell eu guys that i just need a little freedom. Im like turning 17 but eu guys dont treat me like one. I dont go out often, it's like only once a week.Mama, reaching home at 12 issit that late. Eu don't need to punish me by forbidding me to go out! And ayah, eu dont need to make me feel more sad and irritated by scolding me also. Im really sad and tired. Mama, ayah. All i need is a little freedom, that will just do. I'm not asking for much. Please understand me): I won't be like kakak i promise.(Sorry if i say this kakak; its because i care.) I wont make eu guys regret giving me that little freedom. I will come back on the time promise. I wont end up not coming back home. I have always obeyed eu both. I have always tried to make eu guys happy. Now all im asking for is for eu to give me that tiny little freedom. Thats all i need.

[Part II]I totally hate it when ayah starts scolding and spilling out those words which he should'nt say And later on fighting with mama over that matter. Ayah, those things already happen. Eu cant turn back time. All eu have to do is to accept it all. Take it all as a lesson learn. Don't bring up the matter anymore. Im tired, really. I hate seeing mama cry, and i hate it when all this make me cry too. Please ayah, everyone makes mistake. Not everyone is perfect, so is kakak. She may have make that biggest mistake in her life, but i bet she never want all those things to happen. Maybe all these things happen because there's a reason to it. Whatever it is, she is still eur daughter, my older sister. Please ayah, understand her situation. I want to see my happy family again. Please dear ayah):

[Part III]Flashback-[That slap(just now), it hurts. But i never blame eu. I have forgve eu before eu said sorry.] We tend to have small quarrels and fights, but despite all of that, i still love eu. Dear kakak, I was disappointed once(that incident) but im not angry with eu, i never blame eu. Ohh my, how i hate it when ayah starts scolding eu, everything and making things go out of hand. Im sad when i see mama cry. How much i hate seeing all of us ending up not talking to each other an blaming each other. All i want is to see all of us back together. And seeing us all happy. Please kakak, dont make ayah and mamasedih. All i want from eu is to make them happy. Dont take ayah's and mama's words to heart. I know deep down they dont mean what they say. They love eu, all of us do! Jangan lah tak balik, that will only make things worst. Whatever it is, i will always be there, supporting eu. Just dont disappoint me.

I just hope things would be back as normal

2008-02-23T05:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOHD NUR HAKIM !
(Inserts paragraphs on whatever i've been keeping and wanting to tell you all along)

Sadly, i was'nt given the chance to do it all. I never regret, but i'm glad. Thanks

Truth is, imy

2008-02-21T07:33:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's job hunting with kate was fun! Hehhh. We could'nt stop laughing siaa at airport. Can jadi gila, serious. Eur always the best company kate! Ily. From airport to bugis(last mintute plan), still we didnt get any jobs. Aiyooooo. Starbucks at bugis says in three more days they will call this and that. Oh my, sudah biasa ehh Kate kita dgr. Confirm tak akan dapat nya. Well, lets just try at other starbucks. Simei, tampines still have. No worries. Hehhh. If still all tak dapat, mc cafe ahh last resort! HAHAHAHAHAH! Ahhh before i start talking about today, i remembered chatting till 12.30 pagi with hazz and susan baby. Kecoh to the max siol. Hazz and susan gila ahh! Hazz terkencit ehh semalam? ahahha, Sorryy. I and susan mean! hehehee. Abeh susan call me alien. Sedih! Eu jagaa ahaa~ M_ _ _ _ _! HAHAHAA! lalala

Now, im bored. Where's all the gerek people at msn? Why all never online? Sedih. Hehhh~ Nicky is somehow irritating. Started conversation by asking where's Dhia(Kate)? Apadahhh nicky! I never jaga kate lerrrr ☆.Nicky.☆ says (3:14 PM): i wana meet her 1 day ah. but she ah, tok to her, she like nk tknk bual like dat uh. Look nicky, we don't meet people who we just know just like that. So thats why kate react like that. And please siaaa, dont irritate me! Pfft~ Lalalalaa. Im bored im bored. Jadi anot ni go nyai's house to tolong kemas. Just now lupa nak tanya siaaa, aiyo. Nevermind, i shall call nyai later. I think im off for now, bored gila ah. Malas and nothing to blog about also. So takecare friends! Goodbye.

2008-02-20T06:53:00.001+08:00

Lots and lots of things happen this few days, really.
Yadaa yadaaa. From ahmad and jules, 1 week 2/3 days? Never tell me and kate. Great indeed. I dont even know what to say. Well, congrats lahh eh and thanks. Its not hard to tell us eu know. We're just upset and disappointed. (More more stuffs here) And today about school's posting. MOE: Congrats NUR IZZATI BINTE ABDUL WAHID, you are posted to NGEE ANN POLY, HEALTH SCIENCES(NURSING)(N69) under 2008 JAE.Ngee ann, nursing? Great/good/bad? I dont know. I'm really glad that i got to poly, syukur alhamdulillah. Every single day i pray for the best and hope that i would get the chance to get to poly, and i did. Terima kasih ya'allah kerana kau sudah megabulkan doaku ini, amin. Ayah is also glad plus happy. I know he wants me to masuk poly to get a diploma. He said his not forcing me, but he wants the best for me. Eventhough i dont like nursing(somehow), i know eventually i would like it right? Well, ayah is asking me to try and appeal again. So i will appeal again sooon. But i'm still unsure of what to appeal now. Aiyooo. I guess it wont be easy and i would have a lesser chance to get what i appeal for. But no harm trying! Hehhh(: I'm happy for my lovely friends, congrats eu guys! Why mostly all nanyang sey! hehh, i also want nanyang ahh! Haha, mcm faham lah zee. Alright, for now i will try to appeal again. If i never get what i wanted, im going to stick to ngee ann poly with nursing course. Yeahhh. Friends says its not that bad, nursing is also good. High chances- Well hello nursing!(; Heheheh.

Now, now. Planning to go for job hunting at Airport with kate baby. Im quite upset now, but i'll be okay! I still want to go for job hunting! hehehehe, money money money! I need money! I hope i get a job soon ahhhhh~ Please please. & now i better get going. Takecare friends and happy reading. Snortsnort* Ohhh how i miss snorting! hahaahaha. Alright, goodbye!

2008-02-15T15:31:00.001+08:00

TODAY I GOT DATE EU KNOW! I very happy! Hahahahahaaaa. My date soooo sweet tau! Siakkkk aja zee! Huhu^_^ Eu guys like really want to know who my date is right? Like very excited right want to know who! Hehhhh. My date is, is my MAMA! Alright kape! (: Lalalalala, hahahahahha! Mana lahh zee ada date lelaki, relax suaa eh zee! hahahaha. And anyway its like we also canot celebrate, so buat apa mahu ada date! Hehhhh, bebual macam faham siak zee! sepak kanggggggg~ Lol.

Well, yeahh like i say, my date today is my mama! I had fun lah going out with mama. Go makan till i was sooooo kenyang, and we walk and walk till her kaki sakit! Heheheheehhe! We did window shop. I ajak her go to sheer romance, and i showed her what i want to buy. Then she say mahal. Eh okay what mama the price, $40 ++ for one suit. Okay kan itu. Buy for me pleaseee~ I miss going swimming, really! (: Apa pula swimming keluar! hheheee. Ahhh, i forgot something! Haziqah today belanja me famous amos lahh sey! Sweet kape! Padahal kan she must buy for me as she and fau tarik me to walk pass the lion dance! Pantat ahhhh~ SUMPAH IM SCARED OF LION DANCE! That that tong tong chienggggg~ Seram siakkkkkk! I know kental, but its really seram! Stupid lion! HAHAHAHA! And and and before i forget again(STM betul zee!), ayah gave me, adik and kakak $50 each just now! Woohooooo~ gerek peee! I was like jumping jumping! I think he dapat gaji. this is the very frist time he give $50 to all of us, really . Im like super happy! Thanks ayah! I was planning to buy alot of things, but before i could list what i want to buy, ayah told me to buy pants for myself. he hate me wearing skirts, aiyoooooo~ Skirt izzati bukan nya pendek sgt ayah. Apadah~ But i will buy one pants just for eu okay, and also for my own use lahh! hehh. I just love love today eventhough i never get a rose like what i wanted! Nevermind! Hahaahhaaha~ I hope all my love ones enjoyed their day today! Alright, im sleepy and tired already. I want to go sleep! Heheh, im off for now then. Goodnight love ones & sleeptight! Muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh to alllll(:

2008-02-15T05:16:00.001+08:00

Firstly, Happy Valentine's Day people!(For fun)
Secondly, since its valentine's day. Soooo meaning, today is also Hannah's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH! Wahh, sweet sixteen seyy. Hahaa! have a nice day today yeahh(:

Okay, lets start. This few days i've been chatting with hazz about this major topic. Its really like ohh my, very sad lahh eh hazz. Aiyooo. But i'm not going to be sad, like what we both say. Right? Im strong! Hahahaa. & Hazz, yesterday i type something in my phone. I will show eu soon okay syg, when we meet. Been thinking about this and that this few days till i've been sleeping late lately, 1 or 2 am? Yeah. Somemore haziqah and sunhaj are just having some problems and sunhaj wants me to get involved in it, like by helping. Insyallah i will try my best to help. And now kate also like somehow sedih. Aiyooooo~ All about love issit it? Love love love. It's like making people all confuse, sad and hurt. Maybe thats what love is all about. Don't eu think so? Hmm. Alright, stop talking about that. Ohh man, no plans for today. Was suppose to ikut kate go for her interview at ITE simei, but sadly i can't! Mama ask me to teman her go nenek's house. Selalu gini lahh, always. geram kadang-kadang. She always disturbs my plans. Bleargh. Kate syg, i really want to teman eu, but i can't seyy. I want to be there for eu, to support eu and to hear whatever eu want to share with me as i know eu are somehow feeling down. But baby i'm really sorry, i could'nt make it. But I will call eu later okay before i go to my nenek's house(: And now like haziqah ask me to teman her go tampines mall to take her gaji at Pizza Hut. She don't want to masuk Pizza Hut anymore. I know what her reasons are. Well haz, i try my best to follow eu before i go to my nenek's house since like its otw yeah. Alahai, I WANT TO GO OUT! TO MEET KATE! Harap-harap after go nenek's house, somehow i can meet kate somwhere! i really hope so. I don't want to stay at home, very boring! Hehh. And i so want to watch ps i love eu. Bila ni i can watch? Please make it soonn(; Alright then, haziqah is calling me. I got to go now. Aiyayaa, susah-susah. Semuaa plan hancur. Alah, nevermind ahh. Apa-apa later i will plan what to do next! I'm off for now, goodbye & happy reading(:

2008-02-13T09:20:00.001+08:00

Todays tuesday! And its suppose to be tie day for siglap! Hahahahaa! I so miss school): I miss wearing tie on tuesdays! Hehh. Apadah zee. Lol. Lets move on next. Im sooo sooo happy now as i got to buy mango ice kimo at last! YAY YAY! & im eating it right now. Sedap oiii~ (: Now i sedih again as my ice kimo finish already! Satu is so not enough! I want moreeeeeeeee~ I should have bought two sey just now. Siakk eh i, haha. Nevermind, tmrw still can buy! Cannot eat too much, later kencng manis. Tsktsk, not good itu. Lol. Welllllllll, today is just plain and dull. Im not going anywhere. Susan did ajak me to teman her go shopping, but sadly i could'nt. So sorry syg. Then baru-baru ini she told me she also tak jadi, as she no mood. So both of us tak jadi lorr, instead we are chatting ni! Huhu^_^ Ahhhhhhh, i just got to know that kate baby dah dpt her results. What eu get is good kate syg, im happy for eu(: Now like seeing her getting her results already makes me soo ketakutan. Im afraid that i could not make it to poly due to my terrible results. Aiyayayayayaa, Oh please god, im praying for the best. Amin.

I slept ard 1 plus am coming to 2am yesterday. I was having this very sadding conversation with hazz. I did'nt know that both of us were in the same situation. Luckily she was there, if not i would'nt know who to share it with. Thanks lahh hazz syg, i really felt much better after sharing with eu. Nasib kita samaaa lahh ehh. Thanks to that guy. Aiya): We still have lots to share right? Next time okay syg kita sharing lagi. We shall meet one day, hanya kita berduaa sahaja. Hehh(: I'm really glad that i have someone who understands me. Like i never expect it all ahh, seriously. I never expect to be chatting with eu semalam pasal him and everything that happen. Im also shocked when i hear eur story. Ishk, stupid ass lahh kan dia. To hazz syg; yesterdays conversation shall be kept within the two of us only. I promise i'll keep it within myself. Our secrets is kept safely. I shall not elaborate about it any further. Nnti sedih dibuatnya, hehhh~ Okay-okay, sooooooo thats about it for today! Hah, nothing much to talk about eu see. Im off then, goodbye my fellow blogmates and taggers! Nyehhhhhs(:

2008-02-12T13:44:00.001+08:00

eeka: semalam sumpah kekek and fun ! oh oh ! u forgot to insert the part where we four ketawe mcm nak mati about the jagung thing. hahaha ! (copied from my tagboard)

Ohh my,I soooooooooooooooooooooo lupa to write about this! How pelupa, padahal this is so kekek and its like the funniest thing which happen the whole day!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Thanks eeka for reminding me. Lol!(: Sumpah kekek eu knowww~ Everyone was like laughing so loudly! Eeka, susan, ryan, zaki plus me! Siol ahhhhh. Its really kekek, i can ketawa sampai golek-golek seyyyy! Hahahahahahahaahhaa. Kate kate, BABY JAGUNG EH? Lol. I bet all of eu guys who are reading this would go like why baby jagung seyy, this and that. HAHAHAHAHAH! Its for us(those who know about this thing) to know and for eu guys out there to find out! Hehe. The story is super kekek. I don't want to make kate malu lerr. Hehehe, padahal zaki and ryan ever experience the same thing also! BABY JAGUNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Hahahahahahahhaaa. Kekek part of the whole day! (: Sorry kate baby kita kacau. Zaki and hazel ahhh, drag drag! Nyehhh~ Kekek kekek mcm ikan kekek mak eloiiii eloiiiii~ Hahaha, siakkkk. LAME OI ZEE! ;DD SnortSnort*

Too much typing about two days back, saturday. Hahahaa. Lets talk about today now. Well, i quickly took my bath this morning at 10 as i remembered that i had to teman nyai to tan tock seng hospital today. I left house around 11.30, early right. Hehhh(: Reach nyai's house at 12.30 like that, just on time. When i step into nyai's house, Surprisingly i was shock to see mimi(cousin) and this girl(whoever she is) anddd not only that, plus this baby. Wahhliaoo, sungguh memeranjatkan! I bet its that girl whom wak kamal, nyai and everyone's talking about. Tsktsk, apa nakk jadi mimi. Euu have change. tak tahu nak ckp apa lagi. Let them be lahh ehh, i shall mind my own businesss. So so so, the whole day today i teman nyai. I felt really great to teman my nyai, eventhough its a longg and tiring day. And thanks nyai for the $10 eu gave me. I love eu.

Thats all for today. And ohh, yahyah. Mama also gave me $10 just now. Wooooohhh~ i can start saving again! Goodgood(: Im going for job hunting soon as i need cash for shopping! Huhu^_^ & not to forget, i soooooooooooooooooooooo want to buy mango ice kimo! The shop is already open. I cannot tahan anymore, i so want to buy ice kimo! Bsokkkk ahhhh~ My air liur like want to meleleh already craving for mango ice kimo for days, Aiyaa. Nevermind, tomorrow i buy! Don't care! Hahahaha. I'm off for now, toodles.

2008-02-11T08:38:00.001+08:00

Picture of the day!

This few days i very malas to bloggg! HAHAHAHAH! seriously. Ni sekarang ini i drag and push myself to blog eu know. Heeee, Snortsnort* (Ohhh, i love snorting! Siol) Im like thinking to write just a few lines, only! Hahahaha, melampau kan! Lol(: That shows how malas i am. I feel like deleting my blog tauuuu. But then, later where am i going to jot down my feelings kann. So i decided not to delete my blog ini lorrrr. Huhu

Sooooooooooooo, lets start blogging okay. Lots of things happen this few days, this and that. But what i remember is only yesterday's outing to town with kate baby, dzul and asyraf kamal plus the others whom we met like susan, eeka, zaki, ryan and others! Ohhh, not to forget kamal, apit la oi and the other two friends! Woohhhh~ gerek ahh jumpa apit! Hahahahaahaaah, crazy ass! ;D At ard 6 plus went to four chopstick to meet susan and eeka. At sana we also met up with farhan hot plus his friends. Mabok, pfft! Then met up with zaki and ryan. i told eu i met up with alot of people! Lol. Funny ah hang out with zaki and ryan. And so not fair, ryan got hazel eyes! grrrrrrr~ takpaa, i and zaki got blue eyes! We just taknak show people so we use black contact lens! HAHAHAHAAH! siol. Zaki Chuaa betul! Lol. I cant stop laughing when i teringat the part where we past by the temporary toilets near esplanade situ. He walk past the toilets where some people are queue-ing to use and said Wahhhpianggg ehhhhhhhh! Fuhhhhh~ Smelly! HAHAAHAHAHAH!, like cb kan. malu siaa jalan with him, ahahhaa. Dia sindih kaum diaa jugaa what. Apa sahaja zaki! Lol. And the thing that i hate yesterday is that i have to go home superduper early, like must reach home by 10 or else im going to sleep at kaki lima(corridor) i tell eu! Like tooott tooot kan. So being a good daughter who wants to avoid being grounded and cannot keluar anymore, i went home early. left memo situ at 9 plusplus(: Siangggg kan! Oh my, hoho. But its okay, its better than nothing. I was like "ehh, gerek juga ehh balik siang. " Hahahahahaha! Boleh laugh golek-golek seyy when i read back what i type, its stupid & seriously lame. Haaaa! EHHHHHHHHHH! i said i want to write a few lines only right, seeeeee now i drag already! heheee.

Welll, now im like stuck in front of the comp. Not going out eventhough its a sunday. Takpaa, stay at home better! Save ezlink money. Anyway im not bored cause I'm chatting with crazy gerek people who entertain my gilaness. Woooohhhhh~ Syg eu all! Now, siapa nak pinjam i sehari utk date? HAHAHAHAHAHAH! nyekkkkk~ wibby wabba, whoish whoish. I dont believe that i actually type this long post. Hahaaaaha, byk buih sgt kan nak type a few lines, hah kau. Amik ni ubat! Lol.

Fullstop, finishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
& im done(:

2008-02-08T13:35:00.001+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUKENTOT! Hahahahaha(:
Next, Happy Chinese New Yearr! (Eventhough i don't celebrate it and i somehow hate it as all the shops are close. Bleargh~ Hoho)

Wellllllllllllll, lets start blogging! Sarapan was already serve when i finish bathing. Thanks mama! Loves(: Straight after eating, i on the computer. Like habit already lerrr, huhu. Masuk friendster, myspace and msn. Check all my comments and everything, also replied them as well. Iffah(lil sis) was kepo-ing beside me when she said something so funny which made me laugh my ass out! " Dah lahh tetek guitarist!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Siol ahh iffah! I know lahh the word guitarist printed on my t-shirt is exactly at my tetek area situ, but please lahh eh, its unexpected what! hahahahaha, ass eu! Lol! ;D Siakk betul. Hahahahaha! Next kakak pula. She wanted to use the internet for a while, so being a good sister i let her use first lorr. Huhu^_^ I told all my sygs at msn to wait while my sis use computer for a while. End up, i did not went online again as last minute plans want to go aunty's house. Aiyaa~ so sorry hazz, susan and yg lain nya who i ask to wait. I hope i did not keep eu guys waiting.

So yeahh, i went to aunty's house at tampines. Was suppose to help aunty with her last packing and stuffs as she is going to pindah tmrw, but end up lepak-ing with all my little cousins. Tell eu what, once im with them, i always feel young again. Seriously. Macam mana lahh tak rasa macam budak-budak, they ajak play catching, playground, this and that. Best kann! Hahahahahaaa. We played carpark catching lahh just now, we exercise, we played at the playground till i was being wrestled on the sand. Ouch, pain eu know! Hahahahaha, but i really enjoyed myself! I though today cny is going to be very boring when all the shops are close yadaa yadaa, but things are not as boring as i thought when there are things that i can do with little cousins!(: Actually now i just came back from aunty's house, Lol. I havent bath! & now my favourite cerita starting already. Aiyaa, i dont want to miss it. So later i go mandi lah(; hahahaa. I go watch tv now yeah. Goodbye.

2008-02-07T12:30:00.001+08:00

Bored bored bored. Ahmad invited to join him and his friends go bowling at 745. Aiyo ahmad, last minute sgt lerr, So im not going. Sorry yeahhh. Enjoy eurself then. And omg omg. Tomorrow's 7 Febuary! Woohhhhhhh~ someone's birthday lahh seyyy! SUSUSUSUSUSUSUKETOT! Hahahahahahhaahaa. HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY SYG! Wahwah, sudah big already. Seventeen oiiiii~ Lol(: Hope eu enjoy eur day tomorrow yeahh. Going to celebrate with ayg ehh? Best itu. Well, gogo enjoy eurself kentot! His so eurs bsok! hahahaha. Grins*Im like so excited for her, i also don't know why. Hahahaaa. Its like i just love birthdays! We tend to be older on that special day. And oh my, im turning seventeen soon just like susan and my other friends. Wahhduhh, tak tua ke tu. Come on, seventeen seyy. Like so tua already! Lol, aiyayayaa. But its a few months away, so i still have time to enjoy being sixteen! HAHAHAHAHAH! Shut up siaa zee. Lol. Now i'm broke and i totally hate it! There's still no signs of my first pay. Aiya, stress. I so want to find another part time job. In need of money man! I want to go shopping for all my stuffs. Sneakers, contact lens and this and that. What i know is that i'm soooo in need of cash! I need money! Job hunting ahh. Here i go! Hahahahaha. Waiting for kate and susan ini, if they still want to cari kerja. And now i want to eat! Hungry! MAMA, i so want mango ice kimo! But my bad lahh kan, due to cny, the shop is close! Ohh my, im so craving for it. (jgn aku mati sudah kempunan nak makan ice kimo!) Muahhahaahhahaa. Snortsnort* Thats stupid sia zee. Lol;P Wibby-wabba im super bored. Dah ahh, nak makan nak makan! Till here then alright! Goodbye, loves!

2008-02-05T13:42:00.001+08:00

Picture of the day! (:

Was confuse just now to go out with who. Kate or susan? At last decided to follow kate to bedok to meet dzul. Next time kita keluar ehh sukentot! (: So yeah, took bus 38 to bedok. We went straight to bedok library to return the library books just as we sampai interchange. Then off we went to KFC to eat. I was so hungry like one monster! Hahahaha! Belanja kate shroom meal while i ate zinger! Yumyum, it was really sedap! -_-" Okay go. Met up with dzul outside KFC. Dzul dzul, eu never fail to make me laugh due to something eu say or do which is funny. Lol(: We hangout near skatepark sana, while waited for one of dzul's friend. Aduhh, lama seyy tunggu nya! Haaa. Ate pushpop this and that at skatepark. Took two or three pictures there together! Hahah, ahh ini di bawaaa.

Mostly i had fun lahh hanging out with kate and dzul and some last minute fun with dzul's friend. I cant remember his name. Who cares! I just enjoyed today's short hang out. Lol. I took lots of pictures today, friends. Some crazy ass ones and just some random ones. So take a look yeahh! Alright then, till here then. Goodbye! (: Loves.

HAHAHAHAHAH! ;P

2008-02-05T06:05:00.001+08:00

4th febuary. Alamakkkkk, due date for library book. Aiyayaya, so malas lehh want to go out. But then if never return, later jules kena fine! Hahahahaaa. Well so, maybe later i'm going to return them all. Somehow i shall drag myself out of the house just to return those books. Hah(: And now im somehow bored. Susan is not online! Boo): Kentot betul, hahahaa. But eeka is somehow commenting with me through friendster eventhough she's at school (jgn kena caught sudah) while ainrette(mummy) is commenting with me at myspace. At least some people are entertaining me, good! And i just can't wait for ainrette mummy to belanja me! Yay Yay! Talking abt belanja-ing, i remembered how she talks and describe about that chocolate cake whatsoever. Wahliao, air liur mahu meleleh~ Hahahahahaha! Wipes it* Siakk, joking. And to eeka, she's so jahat. if eu want to date with kate on Valentine's Day then, so be it lorr. Cancel sahaja date with me since i lupa for a while lahh kan. Okay? Lol;P Dont laugh in front of the computer, later eur cikgu marah lagi! Hahahaa, ni nak sekolah ke nak main computer ni. Mentel ehh! Huhu^_^ I'm so lucky lahh to be surrounded with superduper fun friends who are always there for me! Thanks guys.

Ohh, i just remembered. Jules showed us a msg from ahmad. " From the first time i met eu, i somehow felt in love with eu" The msg is somehow like that lahh. Wow, we knew it. We knew that things would end up this way. Ahmad Ahmad, eur just like yan(thats what kate said) I dont want to say anything. Well, like what i say. Gasak lahh ehh. I dont want to know anything more. And one more thing , jules did told ahmad that she also like ahmad. Aduhh, utterless. Eu know i know lah kate. Biar lahh, gasak. Thanks ahmad.

2008-02-04T14:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AKIM KECIK!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKID!(ilovemyabcs) :DDD

Only went to madrasah early in the morning today. Hari ini boring lahh. All i did was, i sleep like a pig till evening. Hahahaha! Lol. Okay, & now i'm just bored, goodbye!

2008-02-03T05:54:00.001+08:00

Well, yesterday was superduper fun. Surrounded by funny ass friends; zaki, amin, biman, syam, ayie, chicken and ryan. Hahahahaha, everytime mesti ada sahaja yg kita kekek kan. Lol. We went Esplanade for the gig. Zaki sat beside kate while i sat beside syam gila brabi. Layan kan dia sahaja lahh ehh. Suap cotton candy lahh, apa lahh. Hahahahaa. Eh eh, and amin hot lah dehh. Woohhh~ hahahaha. Siol(: Chicken pun macam woooooooooooo~ eu know. Lol. Funny siaa that chicken! First time hangout dgn them all aja can clik macam nak rakk. Especially biman. Biman indonesian ass lahh. We both have the same interest eh, indonesian bands! Wooh, power! Yokkkk, kita boleh jadi bestfriends(: HAHAHAHAA! Did'nt skank yesterday, as it was like raining, so mcm like malas gitu lor. But we did stand dibelakang and gila-gila. Hahhahahaaaa. Nasib kasut kate tak kotor right? Saving for her date lahh kan. Enjoy eur date today eh baby. And wtf, yesterday nampak that bitch again and like guess what. Omg. I heard that she just broke up with him, ttm. Stupid, i know this would happen soon, and yes dah jadi kan. They won't last long punya. Seeeeeeee(: Bitch bitch. And wth, dont bitch around ahh girl. Dah break abeh pergi dekat org lain kape? And the guy whom she go to, please ah. Eur really stupid. Pergi layankan. Bodoh ahh kau. Kan, dah geram. Hahahahahahaah! Stupid. Malas ahh want to talk abt that bitch in my blog. What a waste of time! Lalalala. Yeahh Yeahh Yeahh, so yesterday i just enjoyed myself lorrr. Got to meet and hangout with gila people, got to meet eeka syg thanks to ryan! haahahah. Meet susan, ferdi and others lahh. & now im boredddddddddddddddddddd! Apit lahh oi dah tak chat lagi, hahaaha. Gila brabi ahh dia. Disturbs people just to korek rahsiaaa. Assssssssssssssssssss! Apit siakkkkk. Lol(: Eu watch out ahh apit, one dayy i'll take revenge! Muahaahahaaahahaah. Evil laugh* And just now i chatted with him. Ask him yesterday never turun ah this and that, and the conversation ended about she and the guy whom she was with yesterday. I know eu know who lahh eh to those who know. And hahahahhaaa, i could'nt believe that he himself says she's like a bitch. Lol, hear that. Even eur ex says eur like a bitch. Aiyaa, don't know what to say anymore. I'll mind my own business(:

i shall end my post now. bored

2008-02-02T05:43:00.001+08:00

Today's friday! Its the first day of a new month, febuary. Wah, time passes real fast. Kagums* -_-" Lol. And like ada performance/gig. I so want to gooooooo, but havent ask mama. Later ahh i ask. Harap-harap can go out, Amin. If i go out today, most probably i won't go anywhere lahh tomorrow, but see first. Hahaha(:

And like omg. Was chatting with kamal just now when suddenly i tercall him AHMAD. Thats super jauh right, KAMAL/AHMAD. Bigbig difference! What with me siaaa, terbawa-bawa kan. Aiyayayaaya, i don't want to think about it. Lalalala. Sorry eh kamal about just now & right now i shall wait for eu ehh! Hahaha, go masjid sana! I actually forgot today friday, haha. Okay, lets see. If i can goooo out today, i will exchange sundress with kate. She will wear mine, and i will wear hers. Thats the good thing about us having the same body size. HAHAHAHAHAHHA! Anytime boleh tukar baju(: But our mummy and mama selalu tak suka. "Hah, pinjam baju org mcm takda baju aja dekat rumah." Itu lah my mama akan membebel. I'm like always irritated by that sentence -_- Lol.

AND IM BORED! sukentot where eu? kate just called. best! Eeka tak tahu mana? i bet sekolah. boo): Okay boring. Goodbye(:

2008-02-01T06:50:00.001+08:00

No plans for today. All i did from morning was just house cleaning with mama. i clean and susun all the kasuts and slippers at rak-rak outside, i scrub kate's shoes which i borrowed, i wash all the tupperwares in the toilet and this and that. now, i can rest. thats why im stuck in front of the computer, blogging(: nothing much to right or say actually, but some things just keeps bothering and bugging me. i've been thinking, wondering and asking myself, why must she and him lie to me and kate. its like they know we hate it when people lie, especially our close ones. but why must they end up lie-ing again and again? why can't they just tell the truth. again, yesterday. well, i don't want to elaborate much. but kate was quite pissed off as jules did'nt called her or msg her telling her about ibu's birthday. jules did called me lahh, but i told her i got to go office as there's a meeting. i thought she's going to call kate or something after calling me, but she did'nt. and i found out that, she invited ahmad to go celebrate ibu's birthday. kate told me jules told her that ibu yg ajak ahmad. wahhhh, how great ehh. macam mana kate was not pissed off. ajak org yg dia baru kenal, kawan diaa yg sudah lama kenal tak call atau apa pun. alahai, we don't know what to say anymore lah, right kate. gasaklahh. what's going to happen next i don't know, and i don't want to know. let's just see how far they go.

ahmad, mrt boy, forgets his old mrt girls. thanks

2008-01-31T06:13:00.001+08:00

its been 5 days since i update my blog. lama kapeee! hahahaaaa. sukentot mahesh has been asking me to update, so because of her im updating my blog now. thanks eh sukentot! and please lah dehhh, don't call me miss bawangggggg! im not miss bawanggg! hahaahahahhahhaaahhah! (:

been too tired, too sick, too lazy to update my blog. well, lots of things happen within this five days. from getting bad results for o's, feeling stupid at the same time, asking myself if i could get to poly, at least and lastly to jatuh sakit againnnnn. bad kan, aiyayaya. but don't worry, im feeling much better now. right now i just have to pray hard and wish for the very best. i hope i could get to poly eventhough the course that i get is not to my interest. amin. okay lets not talk about o levels anymore. later i jadi moreeee sadddddd, hahahaa. okay, so yesterday had last minute plans with kate. we decided to go tampines mall as i wanted to buy this baju at tamp interchange. but before all that, ahmad did msg and ajak to lepak at eastpoint LJS. i actually mmg wanted to meet ahmad lah, but don't know why i never keluar and meet him. all i know is that ahmad ckp that he was waiting for jules when he msg. later-later he ckp he at kfc with his classmates. woohh, i felt something was not right. kate pula told me that jules was at LJS with mummy. hmm, but then if jules is at LJS with mummy, why kate cannot hear mummy's voice when jules called her. pelikkkk, pelikkk sesangat. something is just not right. and we were right, jules and ahmad planned all this. they lied to us. but too bad, they nak tipu us tapi tak menjadi. wahhhhh, terserempak sey, kebetulan benar. terserempak sampai-sampai belt and wallet jules semuaa boleh ada dalam bag ahmad. bagussss. i and kate tahu lahh eu both lie to us. we are not stupid. we know when someone is feeling guilty. we know how to make people feel guilty till they admit that they lie, right ahmad and jules. kita made eu both feel guilty till at last korang admit that korang tipu kita kan.welllllll, thanks eh. why must eu both lie? kalau taknak kita jumpa, why not just tell us. kita tak akan marah lah. kita tak boleh buat apa-apa. at least bilang lah eh, takyah tipu-tipu. tgk sekarang, at last siapa juga yg malu kerana tertangkap basah. aiyaa, susahh susahh. jules jules, ahmad ahmad. hmmm, tak tahu nak cakap apa. gasakk lerr. nasib kita dua org nya penyabar oi, betul tak kate. betul itu. hah, siol. tanya abeh jawab sendiri! hahahaaaahaaa. alright enough of the lie-ing and all. i hope eu both realise eur mistakes and never repeat them. i shall forget abt yesterday okay. so kate and me went to bugis to jalan-jalan. we never thought of buying anything, cuma nak check my sneakers if ada size already anot. sekali kita dua bought a bag, eu know bag common macam ikachu punya. so what kalau common, tak kisahh.i bought the bag not to follow the trend now or anything, its just that the bag is just nice for me to fit all my stuffs in. besttt(: & i owe kate $11. i'll pay eu soon okay baby. after bugis, tak plan nak go far east. but since zaki nak jumpaa kate, so we headed to far east lorr. met up with zaki, ryan and fuchinu. first time oi we hang out with them, and sumpah its really fun. ketawa non stop action punyaaa. boleh golek-golek if eu hang out with them. hahahahahahahha. thanks zaki, ryan, fuchinu and kate for making my day yesterday. i had fun! i totally tak rasa that im sakit! hahaahhahaa. hang out again sooon yeah eu guys! lol(;

and this is specially for susan kentot! ^_^happy now that i updated my blog already syg? hahahahahahahaaahah(: thanks for pushing me to update my blog. kalau tak kerana eu, i mesti malasssss punya! lol. & once again, please lah ehh, don't call me miss bawanggg! hahahaha. one more thing before i end my post ini, i know how much eu and eeka miss ayu. i miss her too okay. yeahh, eu guys have to meet up one day, soon. like what i told eeka. meet her and tell her how eu and eeka feel and what eu guys want to tell her all this while. i really hope things would get better. alright, sudah. itu sahaja (:

& OOHHH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IZZAT ROCK AND ROLL AND JULES IBU!
goodbye.

2008-01-25T17:19:00.000+08:00

my right side punya eye merah. eu willl soon know why.

in the hall i was looking around, seeing people cry, tears of joy and some sad faces which really make my stomach churns. omg. i somehow feel that im going to end up crying tooo. and sumpah i did. and its not tears of joy. my results sucks. its bad. i never expected it.2888888888888888888888! siapa yg expect dapat itu siaaaaa. wow, couldnt describe how i felt. thats my L1R4. siakkkkkkk. i don't want to cry,but somehow i just cried. non stop siol. this is the worst thing/experience that have ever happen in my life. i never felt bad soo bad like this before. aiyaa. i feel so mcm bodoh and useless. i know mesti semua akan marah me when i say this. sorry. but im really disappointed. i know mama, ayah as well as kakak yana are somehow disappointed too. but like i say and posted; whatever happens, whatever my results is, i know i did and tried my best. so yeah its not the end of my world right friends? cheer me up people!

i just send my choices minutes back. im just hoping for the best. prays hard* and ohh, brought camera today, intended to take pictures, but end up crying. so no pictures. no mood.

okay goodnight.

2008-01-24T17:00:00.000+08:00

00:57

14 more hours. just 14 more hours left.

reading most of the sec four o level canditate's blogs makes my stomach churns siaaaa. i know how every single one feels, as i also feel the same. im soooooooooooo worried. im scareddddd. in 14 hours time i will be in the school hall. the atmosphere will be so tense i bet ya. everyone will be praying real hard. praying for the very best, includes me. and all i know when the time comes, i'll be already sitting infront of mr lee,my hands shivering , reaching for the envelope ,and expect the very best( just like what hajjar said in her blog) ooohh god. its really nerve wrecking siaa. to mama and ayah, im sorry if i did not do well. im sorry if i disappoint eu with my results, im sorry. but i know i tried and did my best. i hope whatever my results will be, eu will always be there to give me the encouragement still. and thanks everyone for all the wishes. appreciate it much.

goodluck again to all. lets just wish for the best, amin.

2008-01-24T05:07:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY!

aiyayayayyayayayayaya.

seriously time pass by fast siaaaa. left one more day and thats it. here i go, cryiinggggg.(tears of happiness or stupid! im dead.) ehhhh ehhh, gedebakk gedebukk siaa jantung. exactly like what susan says, my heart is beating real fast just like hers. i wonder how will i do. where will i end up to. im not ready. im not good in adapting to new situations. makkkkkk! ishk, i dont want to think about it ah. the more i think, the more scared i will feel. shit. but at the same time i feel excited. of course lah kan, been waiting for this day for so longgggg. i told myself, eventhough my results sucks big time or whatsoever, i know i did my very best(perhaps. haha) yeah i did my very best. whatever happens, whetever my results would be, i know its all worth my hard work. IF i end up in ITE, nevermind. i know it's not the end of my life. i can still strive! hahahaaha. siakkk, mcm faham siaa me. but of course lah im not aiming to end up in ITE. im aiming for poly! durhhh~ aiseymann zee. goodluck to me. god, only eu know how i feel. my heart's beating fast. i hope i'll do well. amin

and goodluck to all the fellow o level candidates! and this is a must for susan & ainrette. eu must inform me when eu get eur resultss okay sygs. but how siaa, my prepaid low ni. siakkkk ahhhh. i need money to buy prepaid. ooh please ayah or kakak, buy for me prepaid. please.

& goodbye.

2008-01-23T05:09:00.001+08:00

bored. bloghopping sometimes is fun! hhahahaaaa. suddenly i was like looking at faa's archieves july 2007. siakkkkkkk, on the 20072007. kenangan kape! lololol. like mcm sweet gitu lah kan, i miss those times! hahahaahhaaaa. ooohh noooooo, not again zee. takmo lah ingat ingat balik. hahahahaaa. im laughing and smiling to myself seyy faa, mcm org gila tau. hahaahaaa. those times, those times. haaa

http://www.faa-ayg-sha.blogspot.com/2007_07_01_archive.html
just tgk 21072007 nya post. siols jekkk grins*

2008-01-23T04:04:00.000+08:00

24 JANUARY 2008 !
omgomgomg! results.

siakkkkkkkkkk. 2 more days ONLY! tak menakutkan kape! ishkkkkkkkk. mati i, mati i! susannnn, ainrette, kate, jules and semuaa org yg amik o's, GOODLUCKKKKKKK! sumpah i takuttttt! aiyayayayaya~ omg omg omg omg. tolonggggggggggg~ hahahahaa. goodluck eh zee, bah~ asdfghjkll, i can't cool down myself! hahhahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahaha~ sorry. okay bye

2008-01-21T10:58:00.001+08:00

HEY HO! good evening teman-teman! haahahahhahaaa. 1858 tick tock tick tock - 2 minutes to magrib time. i did nothing sey today. only went to madrasah early in the morningggg from 9 am to 12 noon, just a few minutes ago being the photgrapher for my sister & now im stuck once again infront of the comp. see, how boring my day is. hahahahaha~ lalalalatralalala! im suuuuuper bored, chatting with suuuuukentot! rhyme kape! actually not. hah, siakkkkkkkkkkk. BORINGGG! i think im going off now. sis also want to use the computer, so takecare yeah my lovely ones. muahhhh~

2008-01-21T05:44:00.001+08:00

2 STRAIGHT DAYS. GIG!!
POWERR KAPEE! hahaaahahaaaa.

two days back was awesome! it was a blast~ really. hahahahahhaah
i could'nt believe i could go out as usually it would be super damn hard to go out. two days straight somemoree! weeeeeeeehoooooooooooooooo~ hahaha, okay shut up ah zee. lol, ignore that(: so yeah, i shall continue. friday's gig was at esplanade(FISHTANKKKKK!) while yesterday's one was at youthpark(PINHOLES & FORCE VOMITTTT!)gerek kankankan! doink~ had fun skanking, but was interupted by all the fanaticss assholes who were moshing ganas-ly! ahh bleargh~ luckily im not injured or anything, cuma my leg blueblack only. haahahahaa, wide wide smile*

yesterday was crampy siaaaa. turn right, turn left, sweaty bodies! haahhaaha. and of course, there will always be their 'kaum diorang' fanatic habisss around. like menyempitkan tempat ajaa. hahahahahaahaaaaa. well well not much of skanking yesterday as the place was small and i tell eu, i could'nt breathe siaaa when im inside! haaahahahaa. fuhhhhhhh~ sadsad part when i was happily skanking with eeka alih alih munir ajak eeka go to the front leaving me all alone back there. booooo~ sedihhhhhh siaaaaaa, sakit hati sekejap. hahahahaa. tralalalalala, i malas want to tell more about yesterday. all i know is that i really enjoyed myself! weee~ wooo~ HAHAHAHAH!

and to her. i hate people who act as though they like me, but instead they don't. eur facial expressions shows it all, so don't think im stupid yea. and eu don't need to influence people lah. i dont know what have i done wrong, i guess nothing. perhaps its just that i had something before with eur boyfriend, but hey! dont worry lah eh, i wont steal him from eu. im soooo not that type. i have wayy better things to do then stealing or mengatal-ing with eur boyfriend. hate me for all i care or talk and mengumpat about me, i don't mind. hahahahaa, thanks & goodbye.

2008-01-19T07:35:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH! mama~ lol

so sorry, im bored lah.thats why i ended up starting my post with that picture above! haahahah (: nothing much happen this few days lahh, thats why im so lazy to update. HOHOtoday is friday. yeah its friday. and guess what! today got gig lah seyyyy!! i so want to gooooooo~ ooh please. im hoping that i'm able to go. pass through some pleading with mama.please please! its been a few weeks since i met all my frienddds~ i bet today would be awesome!

harap-harap mama nya mood today gooodd. haaaa(: i just tried calling her, but damn. she never bring her phone to work.aiyayayayaya. how to tell her then. hmm, i think i will go down to eastpoint and ask herr. i tell her i'll be goooodd, how about that? hehehehe, evil smile* soooo now i shall wait about 5 plus like that. then when its time, i shall turun eastpoint to meet mama. YEAHH YEAHHH~i so cant wait. mixed emotions- scared,happy, excited.
AHJIGONG!

so longggggggg my little sunshines~

2008-01-17T15:44:00.001+08:00

I JUST ENJOYED MYSELF TODAYYYYYYY~
thats how i can explain. hah

1)find another part time work today.
2)jalan-jalan with kate & fee baby. at last
3)had fun fun fun! gila brabi.
4)laughing most of the time! seriously sampai penat mulut ku senyum and ketawa! (:
5)OVERALL I ENJOYED MY DAY TODAY!

few last words before i say goodnight, sleeptight. hah
thanks sunhaj for belanja-ing starbucks today
thanks haziqah for making me gila gila. hah, always!
thanks kate baby and fee baby for making my day.
eu guys are wonderful! REALLY! (:
and yahhh before i forget. I MET SUSAN SYGGG WITH WESTSIDEBOY LERRRR! hahahahaha ~yay yay, at last dapat jumpa and hug her. loves

and specially for kate baby tersayang;
b, i know exactly how eu feel. but please dont cry tonight. don't be sad, as i will be sad too. anything, i will be there for eu always & i care, and i love eu. and this makes me ketawa kekek kekek. && do not touch me! eu pegang pigskin todayyy! eeeeewwww, HAHAHAHA! siakkkk~

AHHJIGONG .
(dont't ask me apa itu, as i just created that funny word at marina square! HAHA)
okay goodbye.

2008-01-16T13:40:00.001+08:00

nothing much happen today.

1)went out at around 1 like that and reach office at 2.
and then like buy sushi plus bika crackers with haziqah, christina and azri.
HAHAHAHH, picnic.

2)'P' boys were no where to be seen. okay boring, hah
its just that long time never meet 'fingers', 'migot' and the rest! lol
okay ignore the 'P' boys.

3)meeting room one was booked by us. so we pathetic four went in
suppose to do callings, but instead we talk, tell jokes and were lauging our ass out! HAHAAHAAH
until hazwan and shaiful came -atmosphere was slightly different like as though something is going to happen. yeah and something did happen

4)we all were debating, expressing our thoughts abt sse all this while.
its like WOW. the debate drag, really.
lalalalelelele~ i dont want to elaborate more about what happen.
but what i know is haziqah, hazwan, shaiful and myself are going to find another part time job. yeah

5)one of the P boys came into meeting room one telling us that they book the meeting room at 4. so, well we had to get out of the room. pfft! always~ hahaaha

6)out we go, wahhhhh, all the 'P' boys are outside! woohhh~ but the one im aiming and looking forward to meet is/are not there.
so whateverrr lah. i and haziqah mind our own business.

7)went to thrid floor, kelly and services to find another part time job.
lots of people. too malass to wait~

8)went down basement, meet the rest.
talk and share about our religion beliefs! hah, nothing else to talk abt ah? lol

9)with pathetic $2.50 left in my wallet, bought mee rebus.
share with haz, hungry seyyy

10)then went home!

thats what happen today! hahahaahahaaa
sorry for the crappy post today(:

2008-01-15T12:26:00.001+08:00

i shall talk about what happen this few days.
10, 11 & 12, went to TPs open house to check and look for courses as well as to do survey for work. godd. surveys responds was not good which made nicholas angry as we slack at certain times. eh please eh! we're tired okay! & eu no need to show us eur tantrum okay! i can show eu mine too, not only eu. bleargh~ okay lets ignore that.

****

on the 12, at night. I HAD FUN, IT WAS REALLY A BLAST! from 7 to 10 plusplus, i was at TP. actually from petang gitu at 2.hahahaaaa there was the jam whatever thingy. i did'nt know abt it at first,but after min told me that his brother perfoming and ajak me, then i find out abt that event. lol ~was dancing lancing with superheroes. mostly with zuhrie, akim tiger, min, akim starfish and oh munir! haahaa fun ooh fun~ baru hari itu lah zee enjoy after days/weeks tak keluar with friends. and i want to tak abt this two girls i met at the dancing floor ah. they were like berkepet-ing with min and akim starfish most of the time, dancing SEXY-ly with them. okay sshhhh, i dont want to mengumpat! lol i know, when people enjoy themselves, things tend to happen kan. haa~ and that relates/link to me too. ppfft! i cant believe it actually happen. i mean i did that. yikessss~

okay next. 14, which is today. I GO OUT WITH FEE/JULES SYG! ooh how much i miss her. seriously baby, thanks for teman-ing me go to school to take my cheque(: and thanks for teman-ing me jalan-jalan at whitesands followed by at pathetic eastpoint. fun lah kan! buy sushi, buy bubbletea and chocolate fudge for iffah. i really had fun today~ yay yay!

and shit, tomorrow must go work. ppffftt. arghhhhh~ relax zee, just relax.

okay, im done!
at least im quite happy today and yesterday yesterday~

2008-01-15T11:45:00.001+08:00

BLOG MATI. hahahahhahah! wahh, its been a week since i did'nt post anything! siakkk, lama kape! lol. i swear my blog is dying! KERJA is the reason to all this. work every single day till i have no time to blog, to chat, to do every single thing that i want. the worst thing is, im all caught up with work that i have no time to go out, to enjoy and to spent time with my friends. pffft!

i miss going out.
i miss lots and lots of people, my syg-syg!
i miss everything lah.
i tell eu, if my pay by the end of this month is not good and it does not reach my expectations,
i will stop working. seriously

mama have been asking when will i get my pay. friends are asking why they never see me online, when can they meet me, and telling me how much they miss me . oh friends, i miss eu tooo, much. but i dont know when i can meet eu guys. HAIYAAA~

i think back. at times im convince and motivated abt my work, but at times im not. my uplines told me i could get what i aim to get for my pay with 100% effort put in and that really convince me and make me stay and continue with this job. but seriously, im tired. everyday come down office and sometimes go home late. and what if i can't find any networks or people to buy GPs? like now, all my prospect semua change their minds abt joining our company. HOW? i won't get high pay right! this is where i satrt thinking of all the negative things. correct anot what i have stated above. godd ~i really need time to rest, i need time to relax, to go out sometimes with friends to enjoy, to spend time with my family and lots more. im missing all the things i normally do before getting all caught up with this job. hmm~ i want my old life back, please.

lets just wait and see. if this month my pay is not what i have expected,
here i go, i'll quit. i know someday i will regret quitting this job as this job can provide me with a good future, but i rather work and have an average life than working real hard and making myself feel stuck with work and work only.

okay, lets stop talking abt work. im tired seeing those four letter words.
I JUST MISS MY OLD LIFE. im stopping here for now friends. i shall update abt more exciting things soonn.

before i end.
thats why i say;
business is not my kind.

goodnight~

2008-01-08T08:02:00.001+08:00

suppose to turun office today as last minute office is open, but i'm really tired & grrr~ i'm sick.
running nose, block nose and coughs. oooh please go awayyy~

1)im hungry 2)im missing everyone 3)im missing superheroes, kate, jules & everyone 4)i miss ttm, much. but he doesnt care, why must he care when he have someone else to care about right now. right?

those few minutes yesterday, when i chatted with eu. it reminds me of everything back then. when i was real close to eu. when i was trying my best to be there for eu when eur having problems. when i usually hug eu when we both meet. apek yellow hi-5 pakkk! when eu said all these wont end, and that i will always be eur ttm. ahhhhhhhh, words are only words. eu gave me high hopes~

thanks yea ttm for everything. i appreciate everything, really. im not going to be sad, i wont be sad. i have wonderful friends out there who cares, really. rather than those who eventually leave when they found someone new and have no iniative to tell me that his already attached. ahhhh asss. tell eu what, i never ever regret . instead i would like to thank you for leaving me. you make me much more stronger. lest just see who will regret eventually later.

& this note is specially for sham;
ooh sham, eu don't worry yeah. i know eur mum will be alright, she will get well soon. trust me & i will pray for her. relax okay, and eu must eat! jgn lupa! stay strong oh sham~

2008-01-07T12:47:00.001+08:00

im just stuck with work work work~ reallly tired. i dont know how much im getting for this months pay. hmm, doubts doubts~

make friends with two 'p' devison boys yesterday! haaahhaahah. and i tried asking migots name.
nama nya zul lerrrrr. huhu ^_^ his attached! hahahaaa. nvm, i only have this tiny winy crush on him what. lol & i got to know something from fir, migot says; " these three girls are hot!" (referring to me, kate and haz.)FUHHHHLAMAKKKKK! hot kape! hahahahaaa. eu also hot oi. hah, okay stop it ;D

and now i'm sick. boo~ lucky bsok office close. can rest! yeahyeah. im going to bath, take medicine and then take a rest. ooh toodles & goodnight readers

2008-01-04T16:20:00.001+08:00

new resolution for work. wahhduhhh~ this few days very busy ler with work since new year.
HAHAHAHHAA. but case nak earn money kan, so must strive harder! ;DDD & sooo, inoder to earn more money, i need to put in much effort & commitment oi~ yeah yesss! effort! Mr Minghao and Mr Minjie's talks did and really reallyy motivate me to work harder just now. WAHHHHH~ tak sabar oi nak do this and that! hhaaaaa.

okay, alerrrmakkk. why i keep talking about work ni. HHAHAHAAA. excited sangat kape! hohoho^_^ ahhhhhhh. talking about work, tadi something happen siaa. jahat punya azri go and tell Mr Minghao that i like one of the 'P' devision boys; which is migot(i'm still unsure of his name, huhu). shit ahhhhh~ abeh semuaa kacau! grrrr~ now Mr Mingjie andd all my uplines and downlines in 'D' devision semuaaa tauuuu. wahliaaoooooooooooooo~watch out ah azri! hhaahaaa. ( its just a tiny cush okay. don't make me maluuuuuu ahhhh! ;D ) & hahahaaaa, i could'nt believe that myself, haziqah and kate did took pictures of migot when he was having a talk with one of his prospects! siakkk kan kita! hahahaa. tapi sumpah diaaa cuteeeee~ lolololol

ahhh itu migotttttttt! ^_^ the one wearing maroon~

& THATS AZRI! pfftttt!

okay, bsok kerja again. trying to go back to siglap tomorrow to meet teachers. wooohhh~ teachers is a good netwroker oi. GPssssss~ HAHAHAHAAAAAA! only people kerja with me know apa itu GPs, so yeaaaa

okay, im tired lerr.
lalaland here i comee~

goodnight .

2008-01-03T10:07:00.001+08:00

eu guys see a new skin kannnnnn~ hhahaaaa. thanks lah eh kakak for helping me edit my blogskin. both equal mah, i help eu buy food, eu help me do my blogskin (: yayyy!

okay just finish eating kfc and editing kate's blog to put her lagu. im quite satisfied with my new blog skin, huhu ^_^ now im boredddddd lehhhhh! whole day never go out, stuck at home either watch tv or stuck in front of the computer. bahhh~ besok i guess i must go office since christina called just now. i dont know why somehow part of me is saying that my kerja is good and its worth it, while some part of me is saying "makkkkkk, kau kerja apaa sey. macam tak kerja langsung. kau nya gaji pun depends on eur effort itself. ( by bringing networkers in)" PFFFFFTTTT! how siaaaa, i stress oi. BLEARGH~ i like want to find a new job while working at toa payoh, hmmm. lets just see eh kate, we try and sort things out yeah~ ;D

&&&& nowwww i don't know what im going to do. mama is going to hospital to see tok lem, while im with kakak yana and iffah in our darkdark room. haahahaaaa & omg, and i havent solat siaaa. damnnnn. okayokay shit, now i must go solat first. huhu^^

2008-01-02T12:48:00.001+08:00

how can i forget my anak sedara nya birthday celebration. damn man, stupid. i seriously lupaa its today at mcdonalds near kallang stadium situ. bah~ sorry ryan adli.

tak dapat go adli's celebration pun takpaa.i, iffah and ayah went to nenek's house to send his birthday present. at first bila sampai, adli was like crying as tak kenal orang. but after some time, he was playing with me and iffah. happy oi diaa, hahaaa. his so fair seyy, ikut fathernya i guess. and i so like his name. sedaaaapppp ; ryan adli. fuuhhhhh~ ;D so it was time we head back home. must take 291 turun tamp interchange and then take train. reach bus stop ajaa, i saw this two guys. hah, one wearing orange and the other one wearing black. somehow the black t-shirt guy is cute! HAHAHAHAHAAHHA eh eh zee, apadahhhhh! kwang kwang~ but seriously, his quite cute. my adik also agree! kan iffah? hahahaaaa she was like saying the black guy one is herrs. eh no shame ahh hohohoho. reach interchange and we get down. i thought the two guys tak turun, but they did and i saw them again at mrt station. wahhhwahhh~ nasib or what ah dapat jumpa again. hahaaaa okay pfft! stop it eh zee! lalalala~ well, so we went to tap our ezlink card, sekali iffah was like "eh 5cent ahhhhh!" then she was like laughinggg. makkk kauuuu! she make me laugh my ass out siaaaaa. 5 cent pun she freak out like one mad girl! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH iffah iffah~ hohohoho. gila punya budak! haiyoooo~ geli hati kak zati tgk kau. bahhh~ i took her picture candidly and she took a picture of myself too.

HAHAHHAHAA! my hitam crazy sister who freak out gila brabi when she saw a 5 cent coin! bahhhh~ funny or what siaa! lol ;P

and okay, my muka stop it siaaaa. with my perut yg boncet gila brabi itu! hahahhaahaaaaaaa

spend gila brabi times with iffah today.
eating our chocolate & mango ice kimo, eventhough its raining. hahahaaaaa, best lerrrr!

okay bestt, THE END~

2008-01-02T05:40:00.001+08:00

firstly, HAPPY NEW YEARR LAH EVERYONEEEE! lets leave the bad things which happen in 2007, and lets start a whole great new yearr; 2008! weeehoooo~ ^_^

yesterdayy, fuh~ i nak superduper fun. i went countdownnnnn~ tgk bunga api bekerja! bestbest! ;D actually suppose to meet ein to join him, his friend and siblings for countdown, but he was stuck somewhere. so i did'nt get to meet him. but i did spend my 2008 with kate baby. & oohh, im sad lah eh tak dpt spend my 2008 with someone special. hah like kate and ash, like faa with boyfriend(kan faa? haha), like other couples lah eh!haaaha. eh, i hate couples! lol. tapi tak mengapaaa, aku tak heran! cheychey ^_^

soooo, there i was at marina. up in the sky, bungi api bekerjaa. lawaaa lawaaa~ zee suka oi! (: gambarr dibawa, tapi tak clearr lor. hahahaa. tgk aja lah eh.

i hope this new year, 2008 great things lies ahead of me. i want to start everything all afresh. take the pasts all as a lesson learn, yeah! & oh man, 2008 is here. that means, my o level results will be out sooonnnnnn, oh shit, damn. now my heart is pounding, gila brabi! its either late january or early feb resultss will be release! matiiiiii~ ahahahahahaaaaa. i hope, i hope for the very best. please please~ (: so wish me luck yeahh people. and heres my wishes to all o level students; GOODLUCK YEAH EU GUYS! :D

so thats it, yeah.
goodbye 2007.

2007-12-31T07:50:00.001+08:00

yesterday; 29122007 comic strip! its really calling me. im lucky i can go out yesterday. thanks mama ^^ but before going comic strip, i must work. hahahaa. and guess what, do survey at orchard road situ seyy. can eu believe it, HAHAHA. malu tu malu, tapi kena buat mukaa tak tahu malu ahh abeh! kaki macam nak patahh, jalan sana jalan sini. finish at 6, luckily siangg so can take time bila nak change baju. from black gio tee with jeans to the new dress that i just bought! sempatt menyempatt eh? haha (: ooff to marina square to meet fee.
then kita threesome headed to esplanade. waited for like half an hour for that ashley dengs to come. ishk, bleargh~ hahaaaaa luckily comic strip belum start, just nice when we came it started. woohhhhh~ skank skank babe! shiookkkkk! i cant believe i was skanking with hah, muz & munir. makkkkk. like kekek kan. diorang dua. bah. & i swear i was sweating like one crazy pig. with my serabai hair. HAHAHAAAA. i had real fun skanking all night long~ but minus the part about the ewwwwww guys who gesek-gesek with me and other girls and the part when one guy jatuh betul-betul ontop of my head, ouchhhhhhhhh!HAHAHAHAA comic script power mower lahhhh ;D pictures beloww~

right after dah habis, i went back to where ein, andy and the rest were sitting. i terus terduduk seyy, penat sgt! hahaa kasut masuk batu and everything, lol. ahh lepas ini lah yg palinggg tak best sekali. i dont want to cerita ahh. its really like pfft! merepek. fighting wont solve eventhing okay, it will only make things worst. get that in eur head guys! and ohh, im not siding anyone. i just hope these things wont repeat anymore. pls.

2007-12-31T07:22:00.001+08:00

woohhh~ its been a few days since i post something. haha, padahal baru 3 days aja. lol okay go, lets start!

lots of things happen this few days. things that i never wish for to happen. from finding out that ttm now have a girlfriend wth lah kan, he never tells me. and i bet he never will.
im no longer in eur featured lah kan. and i know that im no longer considered eur ttm anymore. congrats lah eh eu with her. & thats all i could say. lastly thanks.

im not going to be sadddddd. no im not. perhaps~

2007-12-28T02:44:00.001+08:00

& so today is 27. days past real fast.

yesterday was busy the whole day at office. not busy mcm do things and that. its just listening to presentations and more to relaxing ahh actually. went back ard nearly 12 midnight. hahaha, biasa lah. jumpa big boss baru balik dari korea. and today go to office lagii~ wooohhhh~ tired okay. TAPI BEST OI! dapat jumpaa uplines, downlines & MIGOTTTTTT! (hahahahaha) okay makk, apa siakk zee. ckp pasal lelaki. bahh~ talking abt guys, grrrr~ ttm tak mencari lagi.
i bet dia dah happy apa dgn si diaaa. i remembered when eu say this tttm; "we shall share and help with each others problems." hah, yeahh right. where is it? have eu shared anything with me. oooooohhhhh nothing~ if i don't know abt eu and her through friendster and from susan and also kate, makkkkk. i will be so bodoh lahhh. im sick and tired okay. i'm always there for eu when eur down, but were eu there for me when im down? no.

thanks.thanks.
for the second time.

2007-12-26T16:57:00.001+08:00

i just cried.
(nothing more, nothing less)

2007-12-26T14:21:00.001+08:00

& tadi i keluarrr with susannnnn lah oi. eh wait. sukentottttt! hahahaaaaaa. makkk, kita dua gila brabi siaaa. ketawa terkekek-kekek. sampai zee jalan tak tgk depan, hah kau. gedebukkk ah apa lagi! tapi tak teruk punya okay! HAHHAAHAHAAHA SUKENTOT PUNYA PASALLL AHHH! lol. jkjk lah syg. dah lah kita terpekik and ketawaaa kuat nak mampos. nasibb takda complain! hahahaa. echooooooooooooooooooo eheh! POWERRRRRR~ bahhhhhhhhh
thanks sukentot for the company. i know we both had great fun, eventhough hanya sementara ;D if only eeka pun adaaa. but nevermind, next time!

2007-12-26T07:04:00.001+08:00

& yoyoyo! I'M BACK YAWWWW! hahahahahahaa. im so glad & happy that im back, back at my own sweet home ;D i've been to aunty's house for a few days. susan say lamaaaa! (yeke?) its been 4 or 5 days gitu. damn it, its lamaaa! huhu i miss everyone. i miss playing the computer. i miss chatting. i miss bloghopping. & lastly, i miss going out! bahhh~

lots of things happen this few days, till i don't know how and where to start. basicly i spent the 4 or 5 days with my aunty's bibik, with only she and me ard in the house. BEST KANNN! hahaa apa lagi, relax relax ahh. tgk mtv hari-hari. masakk apa yg kita nak makan, powerrr~
thats abt it lah. sounds short,but i really had fun! weeeeeeeeeeeehooooooooooo~

now i really can't wait to go out. okay i know todays christmas,but i'm not going out. hahaaa bsok i got to go to work. meeting with my big boss and appointment with my prospects! cheyy! hahaha. mcm faham eh pasal business ni. bahhhhh~ & I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS SATURDAY. im really hoping and trying hard to keluar. comic strip oi~ siapa taknak pergi. everyone's coming down. i can't miss it this time!;D harap-harap mama bagi i keluar. kepada mu lah aku meminta ya'allah. amin

2007-12-20T11:24:00.001+08:00

dgn pakaian selekehh, i went to toa payoh today for some sort of job interview with haziqah and azura. jauh kan toa payoh. huhu okay met up with sunhaj at 711 situ. hahahaha. business man mana aja tau yg datang, terperanjattt! sunhaj in his suits! haaaa. SMART! (: alright, followed him to the tempat kerja lorr. saw hazwan, syed ammar and this other two siglap guys. ooh, they also working with sunhaj. wahhhh~ ramai nahh! haaa. while waiting for the guys to finish puffing their cigerettes, i saw this group of cute guys. (some only, HAHAHAA) sunhaj says they are working in the same company, but they are from different groups. wahhhh~ cute oi three of them. okay like mentel siaaa zee! haha. but normal apaa. girls nampak lelaki yg cute cute kan mesti react macam gitu. tapi to an extend ahh. tak mentel sgt oi~ ;D

we took the lift to the 7th floor right after the guys habis menghisap rokok mereka. when we went out of the lift, wahhhliaoo~ i feel like i don't want to go in siaaa. it was like mcm tempat org businessmen gitu. takut siaa nak masuk. sunhaj like drag us in and walk us ard the place.
fuuuhhhhlamakk, macam tak jadi nak kerja distu sey. but after some briefing gitu from chritina(ex silap juga), mcm kerjaa dia worth it ahh. gaji pun lumayan. i was keen, really keen in working, but ragu-ragu seyy. tapi at last i sign that form. now i just have to go through some trainings. woohh~ i hope i can cope with this work. (eventhough ada this thing that disturbs me, nvm)

BSOK HARI RAYA HAJI~ weeeeehoooooooo~ tgk kambingggg biri-biri! baaaaa baaaa~ HAHAHHAAAA! teringat abt Adie Sufyan! hohoho ;D and ooohh. i'll be sleeping at mummy' (aunty) house for three days gitu to teman bibik. alright, must start packing ni. sooooooooooo, i will not be blogging for this three days or so, alahhhhhh~ boring nyaa! huhu im going to miss all my sunshines. boo~ but no worries, i'll be back soon yea! (:

2007-12-19T08:29:00.001+08:00

ooohh ooohh ooohh ooohh ooohh ooohh~
i feel like im drowning in the ocean
somebody come and take me awayy~
sean kingston kape! huhu (:

bored bored bored. not going out again. kate baby tak tahu mana diaa. booo~ chatting with SUKENTOT & EEKA SYG. lucky lah seyy ada diorang who can accompany me, and make myself laugh my ass out!

SUKENTOT MAHESH & EEKA DENGS~

SAY YEAH PEOPLE! SUKENTOTMAHESH IS BORED~ Haha! Okay shut up zee. im bored myself. ooh yah, i wish all the best for all n level students taking thier results todayy~ now i only know zahrin's results; 8 POINTS! issit that great! wow! congrats lah zahrin! ;D HAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH! & i just remembered something! sumpah its kekek and memalukan~ hahaaa yesterday night i kept farting siaaaaaa. non stop! seriously! mcm siakk kan! HAHAAHAHAA oopppps, MALU SEYYY ZEE!! ;DDDDD i guess the maggi goreng with bawanggg i ate makes me fart all the wayy~ bahhhhhh!

weeeee~ done.
i shall keep the post going soon yea lovely sunshines~

2007-12-18T10:26:00.001+08:00

and ooh its just so awkward. HAHAHAHAA. i can't believe i told munir that i miss him. bahhhh~ lol. mcm kekek aja gitu lorrrr. seriously~ he did say wow(mcm wow sgt gitu) and imyt as well.
okay normal sahaja. its like so random, kankankan. ;D

and oooh, i miss ttm .

2007-12-18T09:43:00.001+08:00

weeeehooo~ im done changing a new skin for my blog. but sadly and geramnyaa, my archieves takdaaa! damn, how seyy? who can help ehh? kalau boleh tolong kan, tag me yeahh~ ;D ye yes! okay penat oi~ pening saya. hahahhaa, right susan? SUKENTOT KAMUUU~ jangan marah yaa. maaff lorr! ;D

now adik making my ear drums aching. grrr~ can eu please wait! can't eu see im trying to edit my blogskin. ishk! okay now im done. and eu can use the computer sepuassnyaaa! irritating!huhu

2007-12-17T07:34:00.001+08:00

i guess im just staying at home today. movie marathon is what i will do, with both sis and zikri. okay lets go~ and ooh mama. when can i get my phone back. i've been asking for days. please please~

2007-12-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

ISHK! my snickerrs still takdaaa. size no stock! grrrrr~ so i took back my $20 from that aunty back lorr. omg, kenapa lah takda size. sudah lama ku menunggu ni! bahhhh~ at far east pun still takda sstock. aiyayaya. takpaa ah. i shall wait eh for the stock. dahlah kasut itu from korea. pantats betul! huhu

& i just came back from youth park. wahhh~ ramai oi tadi. met up with lots of teman-teman. USUALS! wooohh~ i get to hug zuhrie oi! lol i miss them yaww yaww yaww~ (: okay best, itu sahaja for today . BORED~

2007-12-15T05:11:00.001+08:00

i took merepek and cacat pictures yesterday! HAHHAHA & thanks to kate baby for for the help! eu did an awesome job editing my pictures! hahaaa;D see how cacat my face is below! lol

cacat gila brabi kan! hahaa
& ini with small kakak~

& ooh i remembered. i slept ard two plus in the morning. i accompany solehan who was having some problem with his gf. oooh solehan, eu relax yea. don't be sad. i know how eu feel. all this have a reason to why this is happening. chill alright. im going bugis later. to take my snickerss! wooohhh~ tak sabar oi nak pakai! hahaaa
;D

2007-12-14T11:57:00.001+08:00

YES! at last i went out today after days being stuck at home. eventhough keluar because of job interview only, but im glad ahh i was out. kate, jules and myself turun at paya lebar as singapore warehouse is somewhere ard there. before we headed to the warehouse, we decided to go eat. biasa ahh at panjang john perak! huhu .when we were eating, jules suddenly say; eh korang tak nmpak ke perempuan yg amik order kita tu dia punya contact lens color lain. i was like; eh serious pe kau! HAHAHA. apa colour? jules; blue & brown siaa. i; biar betul siaaa. hhahaa. aku so nak tgk. so i & jules went to the counter step minta ketchup. HAHAHAHAHAHHA, kimakkkkk! blue & brown kape. kekek siols. terbiat kape pakai lain colour! okay, lmao! ;D
oh okay best. off to singapore warehouse for job interview~ whoish~ kita walk 20 minutes gitu! kepenatan betul! hahaa its near ITE mac situ. far kan from paya lebar mrt. woooh~ tak pasal. nak kerja punya case! hahaa. so masuk, isi application form & waited for the interview. woiiiii! i don't know i felt so nervous siaa at that moment of time. padahal kan, the interview turns out okay. like mcm nothing gitu. hhahaaa. so well yeah, just have to wait for their call lah eh. i so harap i get this job. gaji lumayan oi~ full-time basic pay per month $1250 seyyy! hahaha. boleh jadi KAYA aku! tralalala~ bila go home time, wahh best! we three lepak starbucks. aahaahah
case kita semua kepenyen nak minum starbucks. lol so we bought TWO MOCHA FRAPP & ONE OREO CHEESECAKE TO GO ALONG WITH THE DRINKS! i bet susan kalau read ini,mesti dia jealous! hahaaa. sedapp oi susan sygggg~ hahahaaaa! (:

and oooh thats all for today.

2007-12-13T05:40:00.001+08:00

okay. semalam was just mcm asdfghjjkl siaaa! PFFT! i was so malaassssss to do anything~ malasss nak post. malasss nak layan mama. im too tired and sick hearing her nag each day.

kita anak sial kan mama? but i never blame eu for saying that. i know, sometimes im just not responsible .

****
okay lets talk about today. im stuck at home. stupid i cannot go out. i want my handphone back mama! eeka ask me to try writing a letter for mama. but i don't know if its going to work. i know mama so well. lets just wait how far eu would go mama. lets just see~ how i wish eu know how i feel. how i wish eu could understand me.

oh yay. im stuck at home! great .

2007-12-11T06:00:00.001+08:00

I HATE YESTERDAYYY! sumpah semalam like F*** firstly nampak si dia dgn perempuan lain. okay fine ah, tak pasal lahh eh! BODOH! dah gitu, mama keep calling. i and iffah(adik) tak angkat ah since esplanade bising kan. then bila balik time, she called. i answered and like she was shouting & marah-marah. "aku call dah sepuluh kali, asl tak angkat!
torek sangat ke. takkan tak check hp! blahblah..." [eh padahal tak sampai sepuluh kali okay! grrr~] AND BODOH AHHH! mama tarik my handphone, as well as iffah punya! asdfghjklqwhdqw! i don't understand eu mama. i don't know what eu want from me. im sixteen, but eu don't treat me like one! arghhhh~ i really don't understand eu.

thanks eh handphone kena tarik.
& im sorry iffah kakak babitkan iffah.

im feeling so fuck up now. sekarang i swear im going to be stuck at home. no more going out! thats what she says! and thinking back that i saw eu with someone else, i somehow feel sedih. ishkishk. bodoh lah

i don't understand mama and i don't understand eu.

2007-12-09T17:03:00.001+08:00

WOOOHHH~ tadi go skafeast. i was lucky that i could keluar, but sadly need to balik early. so yeah, must tell myself to balik early! ramai lah sey di esplanade. mcm semut semuaanya~ hahaa. i pakai so selekeh today. sumpah, tak pernah turun town se-selekeh tadi! lol but, who cares~ ;D
I NAK MASUK, skank and mosh. tapi i takut seyy! hahaa i know like kental. maybe next time aja lah eh i try masuk, huhu

I GET TO MEET USUALLLSS! dapat hug akim, zuhrie, munir & others. lepas kan rinduuuu, BEST! (: tapi kan, sedihnya i have to balik early. if only i could stay longer. lalalatralala, grrr~ takpaa ah. im glad that i dpt keluar tadi even if its just for a while. and now im trying to plan with sis to keluar bsok. harap-harap kalau iffah ikut, i can go out! skafeast last sey bsok!
( kepadamu lah aku meminta ya'allah. aku berharap aku boleh keluar bsok )

okayokay readers~ i want to go to bed. goodnight, sleeptight & sweetest dreams yeah sunshines! enjoy reading my kental, short & merepek post ini. HAHAHAHAHA! :DD

2007-12-09T15:10:00.001+08:00

ahh yess! continue from yesterday. more picturess below~

yok naik beca yokkk! haha

yeahyeah! itu semuaa gambar-gambar nyaa actually i guess ada more ahh. cuma dah cukup pictures posted lah i guess. huhu ;D overall i really enjoyed myself! im going to miss SNO totally. SNO will always be remembered, forever! LOVE!

2007-12-08T00:08:00.001+08:00

ooohhh my syg-sygs~ IM BACK FROM PENANGGG~ yeah! woohhooo~ hahaa
i seriously miss everyone. KATE, the usuals, susan, eeka & semuaa orgg ah! [: (too byk to write, hoho)

oh yea, 4 days at penang was okay. yg takleh tahan nyaa, the trip was super lamaa. berapa hours sey we sat in the bus, luckily ada vcd to watch! the hotel was okay, best jugaa! AIR-CON POWERRR! sejuk gila. boleh terkencing-kencing sia. hahaa ~yg tak best nya, I ONLY BROUGHT pathetic $25 to penang for shopping. is that enough for eu? MAKK, tak cukup siaa. shortage of money! grr~ in the end i borrowed money from my atyqa syg. so sorry eh atyqa, later i will pay eu back! don't eu worry. i bought only 2 tees, a batik dress & jeruk for my mama.
pathetic kan, i know. but at least i get to buy something ;D

we went to bukit bendera. wahliaooo~ sumpah tinggi siaa the bukit. its like 800 plusplus metres high above the penang brigde or something. & somemore its super steep! tak bedek!
nahh, tgk gambar dibawah ini

ini tak steep sesangat. but if eu see betul2, its veryvery steep!

yadaa yadaa~ lots of things happen at penang. until i don't know what to write abt. all i know, pictures can tell everything kan. so tgk lah eh gambar gambar yg dipetik, yg lawaa dan yg buruk! haaa

HAHAHAH! muka zee paling buruk~ bahhh! ;D

okay shit, comp jam. i will post the other gambars real soonn~

2007-12-01T17:44:00.001+08:00

ada-ada sahaja problems yg datang. family problems lah, kawan-kawan lah, byk ahh.

how can i go to penang when your sad, when i know eu need someone to lean on and to be there for eu to cheer eu up. i cant leave without a peaceful mind. i really can't see eu in this state.
i cant see eu sad and when eu cry. if only i could be in eur postion and help eu carry all this burden. i want to be there for eu like i promise , i want to ease eur burden. but i dont know if i can. i know it hurts real bad. but eu have to be patient. patience is the key to everything, trust me eu. i just hope eu tak akan sedih okay.

i will always try to be there for eu when eu need me .
ooohhh ttm~

2007-12-01T17:25:00.001+08:00

does your mum nags at you every single day?
does your mum makes you feel like your still a 13 or 14 year old, but instead your 16?
does your mum msg or call you whenever your out with your friends, making you feel that she is conquering your own freedom? by saying; "dah pukul berapa ni? tak tahu nak balik! nak ukur jalan berapa panjang. and even berapa besar pangkat kawan kau berbanding dgn keluarga kau sendiri!"
does your mum compare you with the other siblings or even with her friends daughter or son?
does your mum beat you till your screaming in pain, for help and seeking for forgiveness?
does your mum scold, shout or scream at you (smpai tak ingat dunia)as though you have created a big sin till she herself eventually pass out?
does your mum scold you vulgarities, maki hamun rabak gila babi punya like;
"mmg puki kau dah gatal, anak sundal" ?
does your mum ever say this to you;
" kau mmg nak bunuh mama. mama mati terjun diri lebih baik. biar korang nmpak mama mati depan mata korang sendiri. korang suka kan takda mama."
does she even say this; " lebih baik aku pelihara anak monyet atau binatang lain daripada jaga korang anak yang tak tahu masuk ajar, tak tahu dgr kata org tua. ANAK MONYET PUN MASUK AJAR TAU!"
does she ?does she?
i know my mama do.

im not asking/seeking for sympathy from friends or other people by posting this. im just expressing my feelings here ( at least thats the most i could do right. ) & i just want to let you guys out there know that im not as lucky as some of you . i may look happy on the outside, but deep down inside im sad. trying to cope with the problems i face in my life from my mama, ayah & kakak. (luckily not my adik)

eventhough i face many problems and challenges in life, i know ini semuaa dugaan allah kepada umatnya. & eventhough mama is like this, i know that she truely love me and that she wants the very best for myself. i know she would not want to see me ending up like those terbiar kids till they become hanyut. im seriously glad that i have my loving & caring parents who cares abt me and wanting the best for me in life. i will show to them that i know my limits and i would not make them disappointed. & I WILL SHOW YOU GUYS THAT IM NOT LIKE KAKAK!

2007-12-01T10:15:00.001+08:00

yesterday mama told me to tgk nyai in the afternoon. (she was emitted sey semalam!)
so yeah i woke up, on the comp for a while and then went off to eastpoint to buy sliced bee hoon fish soup before heading to the hospital. nyai was all alone in the ward as the other patients semua dah balik. i sat beside nyai's bed and accompany her makan. im glad that she ate half of the sliced bee hoon fish soup. she told me she laparr. huhu after washing the sudu, i went off. - cepat sembuh yaa nyai . now im stuck in front of the computer again. and im reading her blog. ( i bet eu tahu siapa kate baby ) reading her blog makes me wonder. thinking about certain things which brings back all the memories again fresh in my mind.

i still remembered how we first met in the beginning, the wonderful times you had spend with me all this while, the love you gave , shared & showered me with. everything its all about how our story started & ended.

* since the day i've known you, i have always felt that im lucky to have met you. i was glad that i was given the chance to be with eu, to build and share love with eu. & words can't describe how i felt. your kisses which falls on my forehead and lips, lifts me of the ground making me feel im just lucky to have you right beside me. everything was just perfect when eur right here with me. your touch, your hugs were all i need to make my days feel complete. i will never ever regret, but instead im glad that we've been together. the unforgetable perfect day; 20072007. spending 30 days with eu is just a wonderful experience, oh boy.

the wonderful ex-boyfriend.

2007-11-29T16:31:00.001+08:00

after those days rotting at home, at last yesterday i went out.
first up, went to my grandma's house for a while to send kebabs which i brought especially for both my grandparents.i think they kepenyen nak makan kebab sey. hahaa~so i and my adik , cucu-s yg baik go beli kebabs at eastpoint and went all the way to hougang to send those kebabs. i am grateful that i'm able to make my nenek and datuk happy,as i may never know when will they be gone .

nyai(my nenek) was sakit. i guess her legs are giving her the pain.she ask me if i could send her to the hospital, but damn. i had a plan with kate to find my shoes. so i told her, and she said well its okay. *i think back what mama said to me. kalau kau syg nyai kau, kau antar dia pegi hospital. tapi i got plans, and kate was waiting for me at kembangan. god~nyai zati minta maaf. but i did flag her a taxi and waited till the taxi went off . that makes me feel much better seeing her going off safely.

i took bus 25 from hougang and drop at kembangan. waited for kate to give me a miss call; telling me i should board the train which is coming. whoish~ i really miss kate siaa. i was super excited and happy that i could meet her and shop for my shoes. kate bought this fucking nice shoes, which is quite common ah actually, haa. BUT WHO CARES! its lawa!& i want to buy it too.

to bugis, to far east.just to cari the shoes.BUT GRRRRRR~ SIZE 39 TAKDA STOCKKK! asdfghjkl betul.dua-dua tempat pula tu, ishk! i was like baru feeling happy nak beli kasut baru so that i can use go penang. but takdaa stock. pantat~ what luck! whenever i want to buy shoe, selalu takda size. geram nya! so i tak jadi beli the damn shoes! nevermind ah kate. i borrow eur snickers dulu ya when i go penang, but eu mesti cuci eh! haha.after penang ah then i buy that kasut, dont care! [:

tak dapat kasut, tak tahu nak go mana. when kita turun city hall. we terserempak fiqa, filzah, muz, farid and akim(greenview). since we don't know where we were heading to, we join them.
farid mcm badmood sahaja, but he was okay after kita go marina. we sat at marina steps. eeeeww ada matrep, appy's friends. bodoh matreps! okay, im so not talking abt them. kita semua bersembang, talk talk . & we took lots of gambar~ ni dibawah ni .

its farid lah TAKE ONE FARID!
TAKE TWO FARID!

gila brabi oi mereka. hahaa FARID; my laughing gas~ FIQA; my sweett oink oink partner! huhu . and lagi tiga tu, ahhh. dolmats betul. apa lagi muz. HAHAA ~ini baru five aja, belum kira superheroes zee yg lain (: talking abt them, i rindu them all sey. i hope this saturday can meet them, before i go penang for 4 days. ooh please~

& ending ending, kate's favourite. suka eh kate dgn badan hot nya, arms nya. semualah eh. eu stalker eu! haha. MRT GUY that we met bila otw home. lucky us~ bahhhh! ooh before i sleep like pig ni eh, if want to see what lagi happen today, visit kate's blog yeah. she got more pictures uploaded. okay best, MEH JOGET DANGDUT BANG~ farid ooh farid [:

2007-11-29T09:18:00.001+08:00

it seems that the weather understands me, it flows just like how im feeling deep inside.

its been days since i have the feeling of missing that someone close to me. as though that someone is drifting away each day. but i cant seem to understand why am i feeling this way. whenever anyone ask, i will say im confuse myself. right faa? haaa

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finally now i know. i've put up much courage to tell eu. i've said & stated everything.
but fuck. now im feeling that im acting chidishly. i know eur busy working. im sorry if i don't understand eu. i should'nt have told eu this im just sorry okay, really sorry.

- lets just say that certain things are meant to be kept within eu, eurself
eventhough it will lead to much confusion .

2007-11-28T11:56:00.001+08:00

i can't explain this feeling,
but i think abt it everyday.

2007-11-28T06:12:00.001+08:00

okay, woke up at 10.50 terlambat sikit dari hari-hari yg lain. well, so now im freakingly bored. sitting in front of my comp, waiting for faa to finish her post and i cant wait to read it. lol

my shoutout;
"i actually miss eu. haa"
(Edit)

faa & susan dua-dua say its him. and i kept asking myself, yeke? sumpah actually i don't know who im missing. zee sungguh belo oi. & strangely, this few days i've been having great thoughts. about what i fikir fikir also i tak tahu. huhu ~what i know is that im seriously confuse abt what im thinking and feeling this few days.